Posted on Thursday, 8 April 1999
Chapter 1 ~ November 3, 18-- Well tonight was the famous first meeting of our Netherfield tenants. There was some mixed feelings about all of them so let me explain them one by one.
First, was the owner of Netherfield-Mr. Charles Bingley. He is tall, has cool blue eyes and curly blond hair. Everyone including myself agreed that he has a pleasant manner and was very charming and attentive; especially towards Jane. In a way he reminds me of Liam.
Next was his sisters, one was married to a Mr. Hurst; well he drank the whole evening and was not very sociable. It was clear that he did not want to be there. His wife, Mrs. Hurst was just as unsociable as he was, I wonder who arranged that unhappy marriage. Her sister, Miss Caroline Bingley is a first rate snob, she just like her sister was very unsociable. She turned her nose up to all of us, she really thought it a punishment to be seen with us commoners.
Last was the most arrogant, conceited man I have ever meet a Mr. Darcy. At first I thought maybe it was Liam, but no this was the most unfeeling cold man I have ever meet. Well almost I would probably put him in the same category as my step-father and step-brother. Anyway, he put everyone down and snubbed everyone even me, in fact his comment about me was "She's tolerable, but not handsome enough to tempt me."
Who does high and mighty Mr. Darcy think he is. My guess was that he is some distant cousin to the Darcy's I know and love. However, I then found out that he owns a great estate in Derbyshire. Could it be? Could that conceited jerk really be my Liam? What happen to his father and what happen to the sweet and caring Liam I remember.
I spent the rest of the evening observing him, his eyes and hair color are the same; however his eyes and cold and hard, not soft and gentle as Liam's were.
Well, when we got home dear 'mama' couldn't help but brag about her darling Jane to papa. How could have father married such a silly women, my only guess is that she was young and beautiful. But, when I look at her I notice some similar traits to her and my mother. Oh well, what's done is done and there is no way to change the past.
I have to give her little credit though to accept me in her house, even if the story they tell about me is a lie. But hey it will not dishonor my father or myself. Few people no the truth about me, and I know that Jane is one of them. However, to everyone else I am the daughter that was kidnapped when she was a baby, raised by my kidnappers and on my 'mothers' death bed confessed the whole plot, and told me of my real family. Funny story, but even my younger half-sister's believe it, well there silly enough to believe anything. How can Jane be related to them and 'mama' anyway.
I don't know what happen to Liam when I left, I don't know what happen to Gina when I left. I don't know what happen to my mother when I left. But I do know one thing that is that I love my father and I am somewhat happy to be living here.
I will conclude in saying god bless you Liam, Gina, and Mother, and I miss you all so much.
Chapter 2 ~ November 5, 18-- Posted on Friday, 9 April 1999
Tonight we went to a party at Lucas Lodge, my friend Charlotte's house.
The Netherfield party showed up, Mr. Bingley continued his attentions toward Jane. I really hope that everything turns out all right for them. I really think that Jane would be happy with him, it looks like she is falling in love with him.
As I was talking to Charlotte, I noticed that Mr. Darcy was staring at me. He is cold and distant as ever and what does he get off by staring at me. I wonder sometimes if he is Liam, and I wonder if he recognizes me. I don't look that different than the last time I saw him, well except for the fact that I was only 16 and 6 years of change has happen to me. I mean my hair is longer and darker, and I have more of a womanly figure, not to mention that I am a little taller than I was at 16.
Anyway as Lydia and Kitty were dancing with officers and making complete fools of themselves, I decided to walk over to them and tell them to behave themselves. As I was walking over there, Sir William was talking to Mr. Darcy and tried to talk me into dancing with him. I was able to politely talk my way out of it because after that insult he gave me at the Assembly, there was no way I was ever going to dance with him.
There is absolutely no way that man can be my wonderful Liam, he is cold and arrogant not warm and caring as my best friend was. I really and truly miss Liam; I wonder what's happening in his life. I can still remember playing games around the grounds of Pemberley. I miss that beautiful place and my mother dearly. Mother how are you? Are you ok? I found my father just as you wanted me to, and he loves me just like one of his daughters. I love my half-sister Jane, who is about 11 to 12 months older than me. We are the best f friends. She treats me as a sister and not a stranger as sometimes Lydia and Kitty act towards me. Not that I mind, sometimes, like tonight, I wouldn't mind admitting they are only my half-sisters.
Jane in a way reminds me of Liam's little sister Georgiana, a.k.a. Gina. I can still remember the day that I gave her that name Gina. She was jealous that I have given Fitzwilliam his nickname Liam, and she wanted me to do the same for her. So I decided to use the GI in the middle of her name and the NA at the end of her name and from then on I called her little Gina. She really did like it and I was the only one who called her that just like I was the only one who called Fitzwilliam Liam.
I wonder how she is, she should be about 16 now and I bet that she looks just like her mother.
Well I conclude in saying that it was a wonderful night, and other than the fact that Mr. Darcy stared at me the whole evening and listened to my conversations; I had a joyous time.
Chapter 3 ~ November 12, 18-- Posted on Saturday, 10 April 1999
This past week I was at Netherfield to be with poor Jane. I can't believe that step-mother would actually send her precious Jane in the rain to Netherfield. Poor Jane caught a cold, because of 'mamas' attempts to 'catch' Mr. Bingley for sweet dear Jane. Foolish women!
Anyway, I decided to walk over to Netherfield to be with her because I knew that she would want me to be there for her. As I approached Netherfield, I came face to face with the king of arrogance himself, Mr. Darcy. He actually found it inappropriate for a lady to be walking alone and on foot, well who cares what he thinks, definitely not me! Well he wasn't the only one Miss Bingley, the snob, who looked at me like I was an ill-bred young lady, well I don't care what you think either. As far as I am concern you and Mr. Darcy are perfect for each other.
Well, back to the 'king of arrogance' as I like to call him now, because all he did while I was there was stare at me and pick arguments with me. He had to totally disagree with everything I said. I was sure glad when Jane got better and we got to leave.
As for today, I finally met another one of my father's family - Mr. Collins. What a silly stupid man, he doesn't know the meaning of the word sense. I was almost however, in shock when I heard of his patroness, Lady Catherine de Bourgh, who is Liam's aunt. Oh no, I was very upset by this little piece of news, I knew she was a proud and very haughty woman who did not like me at all. She never once treated me with an ounce of kindness when I was introduced to her by Mr. Darcy and Liam, shortly after Lady Darcy's death. She was the rudest person, no way that Lady Darcy was related to her. Anyway, Mr. Collins made me laugh when he talked about her like she was the greatest person in the world, afraid not my dear Mr. Collins. She is one of the rudest ladies in the world, along with dear Miss Bingley.
I have one thing to thank dear 'mama' for and that is Mr. Collins wanted to marry one of us, and when he suggested me 'mama' talked him out of it. She told him I was a headstrong independent woman, unworthy of his offer. Yes! Thank you 'mama', I can't began to thank her enough, she thinks she is hurting me by doing so, afraid not. What she is really doing for me is saving my life. Thanks again dear 'mama'. She suggested Mary and now he is trying to court Mary and is winning. Poor Mary oh well, I think she is best suited for him.
However, I have one awful thing that happen to me today. As we were all walking into Meryton, Kitty and Lydia went running over to talk to some officers, there was a new person with the officers and he was a person from my past. My dear step-brother, George Wickham, at that moment I felt like turning and running back the way we came from. I couldn't, all I was thinking and praying was that he did not recognize me; and thankfully he did not. He treated me just like my sisters, with false kindness.
At that moment Mr. Bingley and the 'king of arrogance' came riding by on there way to Longbourn I suppose. As they stopped George turned around and the look of shock and angry appeared on both his and Mr. Darcy's face. Mr. Darcy then turned and continued to ride away; what just happen? I couldn't understand, could Mr. Darcy really be Liam. From the look on their faces, they obviously know each other. How do they know each other? I am still even now, wondering that fact.
Chapter 4 A ~ November 20, 18-- Posted on Saturday, 10 April 1999
Tonight was the Netherfield Ball and I found out something really shocking and important to me; 'king of arrogance' is in fact Liam. My Liam, my childhood best friend.
Charlotte and me were talking, when he walked up to me and asked me to dance, and at the time stupid me couldn't think of an excuse. Just as the musicians started to play, I immediately recognized the song. It was the song that Liam and me first danced to at his coming out ball. When I glanced at Mr. Darcy, I realized something familiar in his expression. I looked into his eyes as we passed each other and I saw all the proof I needed, Mr. Darcy is really Liam. My Liam is this cold, conceited, arrogant jerk, what could have happened to him? I wish I knew.
Finally I couldn't take it anymore it was killing me to find out, so I asked him only something that him and me would know. I asked him quietly 'How's Gina?'
He looked at me strangely, shocked at first and then he looked me in the eye and it hit him who I was.
'Lisa, is that you?' he asked quietly in return.
'Yes,' we then separated again by the dance we both knew so well. For you see it was the same dance that Liam's father taught us so long ago. At the pause for us in the dance, Sir Lucas started to say things about Mr. Bingley and Jane and caused Liam to glance at them momentarily and then back at me. I never felt more embarrassed in my life she did it again. She being 'mama' and her rumors about poor Jane and Mr. Bingley. Finally the dance was over and Liam escorted me to a side of the room and asked me to meet him in the library in ten minutes. I agreed and I was the first to get in there, so I walked over to the fire thinking about everything that was happening tonight.
I was interrupted by a soft and gentle voice saying, 'I thought I could never get away from Caroline and her sister."
I turned around and was amazed at what I saw; I saw Liam my happy and laughing dear friend. No longer did he look proud and arrogant but kind and gentle. He quickly closed the gap between us and just stood there and stared at me.
Finally I said, 'Hello Liam.'
'Hello Lisa, how are you? What are you doing here? And why is your name Miss Elizabeth Bennet?' I smiled, just like Liam-straight and forward. Always wanting to know what's going on, and always wanting answers to everything.
'Well I live in Meryton as you can see, and my true name is indeed Elizabeth Anne Bennet.'
'I don't understand Lisa, how could my childhood friend be living with a family I never heard of till now.'
'Well it's a long story, are you sure you want to hear it?'
He nodded and motioned to the sofa, we both sat down just inches apart. I took in a deep breath and begin my story. 'Let's see where do I begin, I guess it started when I was 15, almost 16 and just 2 months before your coming out ball, and I was walking home from one of out outings. I came across a lady and she called me Elizabeth, at first I thought she was talking to someone else. She wasn't, she asked me if I was Michelle Wickham's little girl and I told her yes. She then said that she was correct and my name was Elizabeth, which I was born a few months before my mother married Mr. Wickham. Which meant that I wasn't Mr. Wickham's daughter, at first I was shocked, but then it all started to make sense. Why George was always finding way to get me and trouble and how 'father' would believe him and not me. How whenever something went wrong or there was an accident and I always got the blame. I always thought it was because he didn't like me, but it was the fact I wasn't his daughter.'
'Ok, but why call you Lisa instead of Elizabeth?' Liam asked trying to comprehend all of this.
'Because 'father' didn't like the name Elizabeth, he preferred the name Lisa better. So it was changed and for 15 years I was living under a false name and a lie. Anyway after I got home I decided to ask 'father' the truth and he told me everything, the fact that he 'loved' my father enough to marry her and give her newly born infant his name. However, he didn't love me, and he told me that in those exact words.'
Liam then reached over and took my hand into his and began to rub it affectionately like he use to when things got rough for me and George was teasing me again.
Finally he spoke and asked me; 'Then why did you disappear the day after the ball, if there was a problem you could have came to me. Lisa, I would have done anything for you.'
Chapter 4 B Posted on Sunday, 11 April 1999
'Oh Liam, I know you would have. However it was my choice to leave. It all happen after the ball, I got home and was about to go to bed, when 'father' told me to come into his den. I did what was asked of me and went into his den and stood there as he started to yell at me. He started to go on about whom do I think I was? Being able to go a party for upper class people and not us servants. And who invited me to the party? I told him that it was Mr. Darcy, he wanted me to go to watch Gina and keep her company. He wanted someone there with her that she knew and trusted. Boy was he angry at that, he then proceeded to yell and belittle me, saying that no one loves me or even cares for me, and your father just needed someone to baby-sit Gina and I was his only choice.'
'I was so angry and finally yelled that he was right about one thing-he didn't love me and the feeling was mutual that I didn't love him either and I hated him and his brat son, George. Well that did it because the next thing I realized was a hard stinging feeling on my face. He slapped me Liam, he slapped me hard and hurtful.' After saying that a single tear rolled down my cheek and Liam proceed to wipe it from my face.
I continued very quietly in saying 'that 'father' then told me to get out and he never wanted to see me again and I told him gladly. I stormed up to my room and packed just a small amount of things.'
'You packed your things? But Lisa, why didn't you come back to the house?'
'I wanted to Liam, I was about to when he walked into and told me let's go. He dragged me down stairs and told me to say goodbye to mother, who was crying. After I had only a second to tell her that I loved her and goodbye he took me outside and put me into the carriage telling the driver to go to Hertfordshire.' I started to really cry after that, remembering how it felt saying goodbye to mama and knowing that I would never see her or the Darcys again.
Liam then moved next to me and pulled me into his arms, gently stroking my hair and whispering comforting words in my ear. In his arms I continued:
'When we got to Meryton, it was mid-afternoon and I asked him why are we here and he told me that my father lived her and for me to find him. I asked where and he said 'find a Mr. Randall, he's your father.' After that he told me something that I will never forget for the rest of my life. 'If you ever try to make contact with the Darcys or your mother, you will regret it. For as you know, accidents can easily happen and the people you 'supposedly' love will get hurt.' Liam I can still hear him saying that and it still frightens me to this date. With that he left and I never say him again.' I started to cry again, however this time I felt safer being wrapped in Liam's comforting embrace.
Chapter 4 C Posted on Monday, 12 April 1999
"Lisa, I am so sorry, if only I had known. You know I would have helped you with anything."
"How would you have helped Liam, mother and me were so scared that there is no way that either one of us would have told you. Don't start blaming yourself Liam, please don't you can't protect me all the time." I looked directly into his worried eyes to tell him exactly what I felt.
"I know I can't, but I try whenever I can. So, you said Mr. Wickham told you to look for a Mr. Randall?" I nodded. "I don't understand your surname is not Randall its Bennet."
"Well if you stop talking Liam, I finish my story. Ok?" he nodded. "Like I was saying before I was interrupted, he told me to look for a Mr. Randall. I was scared and alone and he wanted me to ask complete strangers for a man. I was debating on what to do when a gentleman rode by and asked if I needed any assistance. I asked him did he know a Mr. Randall, and he went pale and jumped off his horse and asked me who wanted to know. I told I did, Elizabeth Anne Randall, that I am his daughter and I desperately needed to find him. He looked at me and asked did I know a Michelle ---? I told him yes, and that she was my mother, I then showed him the locket your parents gave me with mothers and mine photo in it. He finally believed me and told me that he was Mr. Randall, however that wasn't his name. It was an alias he used when he met my mother that one night. He told me his real name was Mr. Bennet and to please come with him. He placed me on his horse and proceeded to take me to Longbourne, to my new home. One the way he asked where was my mother and not wanted to telling him the truth, I lied telling him that mother died and on her deathbed told me to find a Mr. Randall in Meryton, Hertfordshire. I didn't at that time want to tell him the truth, and I still haven't told him."
I stopped taking a breath and backing out of Limas arms to look at him. He just looked at me with sorrow in his eyes, I took my hand and placed it on his cheek like I done a hundred times, especially after his mother died. He grabbed it and placed it in his own hand and I continued my story.
"Boy you should have seen the shock on Mrs. Bents face, it was priceless." I started to laugh a little remembering the look on her face. "Anyway at first, she wouldn't believe me, she thought I was lying. However father told her I wasn't and I was his daughter, she then went into hysterics saying what about her girls and the scandal involved with this. They will all be ruined, then papa suggested the kidnapping story. She finally accepted it and called in the girls and told them the story, Jane was the first to walk over to me and told me welcome home. The other followed her example and gave me hugs as well, and I felt like I was home. The next day I met Aunt Phillips, she believed the story completely."
"How Lisa, my guess in this town no bodies lives are secret?"
"Yea, they aren't. However, shortly after Jane was born, the Bennets went on a vacation for about a year. Papa and "mama" were trying to get their marriage back. So it fit perfectly into the story, "mama" became pregnant before they left and I was kidnapped during their stay in a small little town. Not on doubted the story and I was welcomed into society. Well almost everyone, "mama" still wouldn't acknowledge me in private. When we were in public, she was always warm and affectionate. She is a wonderful actress; she should do a play. And that Liam, is what happen to me 6 years ago, from that moment on Lisa Wickham disappeared and Elizabeth Bennet was found." I let out a deep sigh of relief finally, I told my story to one of the most important people in my life.
Chapter 4 D Posted on Tuesday, 13 April 1999
Finally after finishing my story I asked him:
"Now let me ask you- how did you end up like the man I've been around the past few weeks? A proud, arrogant, and conceited gentleman who didn't care who he offended, which I might add offended me as well. What happen to you over the past 6 years?
"Well plenty had happened to me as well Lisa, however we have been gone to long. Someone is bound to notice our disappearance."
"Wait I am not done yet, I still want to know. I also want to know what happen to your father, Gina, and my mother. Also, I know that George is here and you two hate each other, but why? What has the jerk of a step-brother done this time?"
Liam laughed a little and said, "just like you Lisa, always not satisfied until she gets her answers to a million questions. I will tell you tomorrow, when we have more time together. I promise."
"Ok, I guess that will do for now. But, tomorrow you have to tell me everything."
"Yes, dear Lisa, tomorrow. Now shall we Miss Bennet?" He offered his arm to me.
"Love to Mr. Darcy." And as I placed my hand on his arm, he grabbed my hand and kissed it. With a little laugh from us both, we returned unnoticed to the ball. The rest of the evening went splendid; Liam stayed near me as much as possible. However it was time to go and Liam escorted me out, much to Miss Bingleys dislike.
"Goodnight Elizabeth, pleasant dreams." He whispered quietly. He said it, he actually said my real name and it sounded so heavenly when he says it.
"Goodnight to you as well Liam." And with that we left.
However, when we got home, papa pulled me aside and asked me where was I? I was about to reply with a pre-thought of excuse when Mr. Collins interrupted us. I finally was able to slip away and head to my room to think about the ball.
A few minutes later, Jane walked in and told me everything I missed. She said that Lydia made a complete fool of herself and "mama" was bragging about having 2 of her daughters so well off. Poor Jane, well I am glad that Liam and me were not around when that happen. Jane finally asked me where was I, I told her I was talking with a friend of mine. She thankfully left it at that and bid me goodnight.
I too am tired; its been a wonderful night. I can hardly believe what has happen and I can't wait for tomorrow. Just knowing that Liam is here and he knowing who I am, is all the comfort in the world. I am also a little nervous about tomorrow; I wonder what has happen in his life to change him so. Well tomorrow will come soon enough. One last thing, my hand still tingles were Liam kissed it.
Chapter 5 A ~ November 21, 18-- Posted on Wednesday, 14 April 1999
Where do I begin? So much has happen today; I just don't know where to start. I guess it's better to start at the beginning.
Mr. Bingley and Liam called this afternoon, 'mama' was her usual polite to Mr. Bingley and rude to Liam. I was so embarrassed, finally I got up the nerve and asked 'Mr. Darcy have you seen much of the countryside?'
'Why no, Miss Bennet, would you be so kind as to show me some of the countryside?'
'She would be more than happy to Mr. Darcy,' 'mama' gladly answered for me. She was glad to get rid of two people she can't stand to be around.
I went upstairs to grab a jacket and bonnet, and on returning downstairs, I saw Mr. Collins talking to Liam. Oh no, please you annoying little man leave him alone. 'Mr. Darcy, are you ready to go?' I asked, interrupting them.
'Yes Miss Bennet, Good day Mr. Collins,' Liam said with a relieved look.
'Good day to you sir, Cousin Elizabeth.' Mr. Collins was about to say more, but Liam didn't give him the chance to. As soon as we were both outside we started to laugh.
'What did Mr. Collins want Mr. Darcy?' I asked in-between laughs.
'Not much, just to tell me that Aunt Catherine and Anne were in perfect health when he last saw them.'
'Oh that's all, I am surprised he didn't keep going on and on about the virtues of dear Lady Catherine.' I said with false sincerity.
'Anyway Lisa, where are we going to walk to.'
'We could walk to Oakham Mount, there is a nice spot were we could sit and talk.'
'Sounds lovely shall we Miss Bennet?
As we were walking it was like nothing changed between us. We were both laughing and teasing each other, just like old times. Finally we reached our destination and I told Liam that it was his turn for his story.
'Well let's see mine would start the day after the ball and I found out that you were gone. I didn't realize how important you were to me until you were gone. After that day, things just kept getting worse.'
'How Liam?'
'Well about 6 months after your disappearance, Mr. Wickham and your mother were killed.'
'What! No please tell me you are joking, please Liam, tell me it's a horrible lie.'
'No, I'm not Lisa, it was a tragic incident. There was a fire and they were both caught in it. I am so sorry Lisa.'
At that moment I felt my whole world collapse. I can't believe my mother is gone, so many things I wanted to say to her. There were to many unsaid things, I started to cry and Liam wrapped his arms around me. I just let him hold me until I stopped, and I broke away and sat down waiting for him to continue.
'Then' he continued, 'about another 6 months later, my own father died.'
Oh no! I thought, all within a year he loses Mr. Darcy and myself. This time it was my turn to wrap my arms around him and offer him words of comfort.
He continued quietly, 'Gina was so upset, all she could say is 'Lisa, I want Lisa' over and over again. She just couldn't understand that you weren't there and you were, at the time, never returning.
'Poor Gina, I am so sorry Liam. I wish I knew all of this, I should have been there for you and Gina.'
'But how Lisa? In your own words, you couldn't write you were to scared even if you could. There is nothing you could have done and I don't blame you Lisa.'
He was right, but still I can't help from feeling a little guilty.
Chapter 5 B ~ November 21, 18-- Posted on Thursday, 15 April 1999
'What about George? What happen for you to hate him so?'
Liam broke away from my embrace and turned away saying: 'I haven't told this to anyone Lisa, and I prefer that you don't either.'
'You know that you can trust me Liam, always.'
'Father in a way, as you know, had always been blind when it came to George. He was after all his godson. After Mr. Wickham and your mother's death, father supported him at school and in Cambridge. My father hoped that he would be a clergyman, but I knew that not to be true. After father's death his loyalty to George was still evident and he...' Liam went on telling me all that happen, nothing that he told me shocked me in the least. I knew George was like that, and so did Liam. But the final incident that happen last summer horrified me.
'How could he do that? How could he try to let Gina believe she loved him? He is the most unfeeling, callous, horrible man in the world. He truly is Mr. Wickham's son.' I replied angrily, 'But Liam, how's Gina? Is she all right?'
'Yes, she is a little better Lisa. I think she'll be even better when she sees you, dear Lisa. And that my friend is all that happen to me. After you left my world collapsed and kept getting worse. I was at an early age, the master of Pemberley and a father to Gina; I also had to accept that my one true friend was dead. I thought it would keep on getting worse until last night. That night was one of the happiness nights I have had in a long time, I got my dear friend back.'
'And I got you back, dear Liam.' I replied with tears in my eyes, I embraced Liam tightly as if I never wanted to let him go. Finally it was getting late and we had to get back before they sent the hounds after us.
Liam and Mr. Bingley left shortly after we returned.
Later on I retired to my room and cried for what I felt like a lifetime. It was until I felt a hand on my shoulder that I stopped and looked up, I saw Jane.
'What's wrong Lizzy?'
'Nothing,' what was I to say to her, how was I to tell her that it was my mother that I crying for.
'Something happen to your mother, didn't it?'
'Why would you say that?'
'Lizzy, I am not as dumb as the others, I know that you aren't mother's child. I have known since the first day you came here.'
'I don't understand, then why are you so nice and loving to me. I thought you would hate me as your mother does.'
'I could never hate you, you are my sister, and I love you Elizabeth.'
'Love you to dear sister Jane, and yes my mother is dead. She has been for a long while.' I said not wanting to let her know exactly when she died.
'Well I am truly sorry Lizzy.'
'Thanks Jane.'
We continued to talk until all hours of the night about my mother and Mr. Bingley. Finally she said that she was tired and returned to her room. She knows, and she still loves me, she must really be my father's daughter. She is so sweet and kind, I am glad she is my sister.
Goodbye mother, I will always love you. Goodbye Mr. Darcy, I will always hold a special place in my heart for you, you were almost like a father to me and I thank you. Goodbye Mrs. Darcy, I hold you in that same place as Mr. Darcy, thank you for loving me. Goodbye Mr. Wickham, may you burn in hell. I will not miss you the least.
Chapter 6 ~ December 1, 18-- Posted on Friday, 16 April 1999
Well today was both a happy and a frustrating day.
Happy on that Mr. Bingley proposed to Jane, she is so happy. When you look at them both you can see that they are happy. I am very happy for my sister and future brother-in-law.
It also seems that marriage proposals are in the air; Mr. Collins has asked Mary to marry him and she accepted. Well whatever makes her happy, 'dear mama' is happy beyond words. Two daughters married and one of them will be mistress of this house.
One the other hand today was also a frustrating day, the 'king of arrogance' reared his ugly head. We all-Mr. Bingley, Jane, 'mama', Kitty, Lydia, Mary, Mr. Collins, Liam, and myself-were in the parlor room talking and laughing. When Liam made a comment:
'It seems Mrs. Bennet, you have a daughter that is soon to be so advantageously matched. Congratulations.'
How could he say that, and about dear Jane. I was so angry with him that I excused myself saying that I was going to call on Charlotte. I hurriedly left the house, trying to put as much distance between that arrogant jerk and me. I then heard someone yelling my name and I turned to see Mr. Darcy approaching.
'Lisa, what's wrong?'
'What's wrong! I'll tell you what's wrong, Mr. Darcy, you are! How could you insult my sister like that, that was rude and unfeeling.'
'But Lisa, it's the truth.'
'Don't you even think that maybe Jane loves Mr. Bingley? Why else would she marry him?' Then it hit me exactly what he thought. 'No, that's a horrible lie, Jane loves Mr. Bingley. She told me herself, she is not marring him for a 'good match'. She is marring for love. Now if you will excuse me Mr. Darcy, I want to walk alone.' I turned and stormed off.
'Lisa! Lisa, please wait a minute, let me explain. Lisa stop!' He said grabbing my arm.
'Let go Mr. Darcy. And further more my name is Elizabeth, Miss Bennet to you, sir.'
'Miss Bennet,' he said with hurt tone. 'Lisa, I thought we knew each other well enough to be able to call each other by our Christian names.'
'I thought so to. However, that man in the parlor was not my dear friend, he was that cold arrogant jerk, I first met at the Meryton Ball.' I was about to walk away when I turned and said: 'if you want to still be my dear friend, then be the person I know. Be Liam. Otherwise, I want nothing to do with you, Mr. Darcy.'
'Miss Bennet wait please, I'm sorry. Your right, please I don't want to loose you again. Please Elizabeth.'
I looked at him and was about to walk away when I said, 'come on, while we are out here, might as well go for a walk.'
He grinned and said 'thank you dear friend.'
We started to go for a walk, when I heard someone again yelling my name. I turned and saw Jane and Mr. Bingley walking toward us.
'Miss Bennet, I want to apologize to you. What I said in the parlor was very rude, and I hope that you can forgive me.'
'Thank you Mr. Darcy, apology accepted.'
'Shall we all continue for a walk.' Mr. Bingley suggested.
'Fine with us, shall we Miss Bennet.' Liam said offering me his arm.
'Love to Mr. Darcy, let's see where shall we walk to today.'
We all started on our merry way, forgetting everything that happen this morning and the rest of the day went lovely. I sincerely hope that is the last I ever see of the 'king of arrogance'.
Chapter 7 ~ December 8, 18-- Posted on Saturday, 17 April 1999
Well today was a tiring day and I now write from Gracechurch St. at my Uncle and Aunt Gardiner's house.
I came today to London with Jane, Mr. Bingley, Miss Bingley, Mr. and Mrs. Hurst, and Liam. Mr. Bingley-Charles as he wants me to call him, Jane, Liam and me rode together, so it was a delightful trip. Liam was polite and having fun around Jane and myself. I think it surprised Jane a little.
Finally we arrived and Aunt's house, and Liam and Charles were introduced. I found something out today as well, aunt is from Lambton, the village near Pemberley, she and Liam hit it off nicely. I can tell that he like both aunt and uncle, and he is not embarrassed of them. As they were leaving Liam told me that in two days Gina was to arrive and she can't wait to see me. Liam already wrote to Gina and told her everything that happened to me, so I won't have to explain it again.
Charles and Jane bid their farewells and I said goodbye to Liam.
'Take care Miss Bennet, I will see you in two days.' And with that they left.
One other thing that happen today is aunt keeps looking at me. I wonder that since she is from Lambton, that she knows me and who I am. I guess I will just have to wait and see.
Chapter 8 ~ December 10, 18-- Well today was the day, today I finally saw Gina again. She is so beautiful, she reminds me of Lady Darcy. At first we had to remain proper because Charles and Jane were in the room, however as soon as they left she instantly went to me and hugged me tightly.
'I missed you so much Lisa, I couldn't believe when William told me that he found you.'
'I missed you as well Gina, however there is one thing that you can do for me?'
'Sure anything, Lisa.'
'Please call me Elizabeth or Lizzy, I don't really like being called Lisa anymore.'
'No problem. It will be hard at first, but I will try, Lizzy.'
'Thank you Gina.'
We continued in that fashion for sometime, talking like old times and laughing about the silly stunts we did at Pemberley growing up. Gina was telling me all that's happen and I was telling her about my new family, when Liam walked in saying it was time to go.
'Bye Lizzy, till we see each other again.'
'Take care Gina, bye Liam I will see you tomorrow then.'
'Good day Miss Bennet.'
After they left it suddenly hit me, ever since that little argument Liam and me had, all Liam has been calling me is Miss Bennet. Why? We were alone and he could have called me Elizabeth. I don't understand.
Aunt Gardiner walked in and asked if I wanted to go for a walk and I gladly accepted. On the walk she surprised me by saying something shocking.
'I remember walking around Derbyshire one day, and I saw a group of 4 kids playing. 1 of them I recognized as Mr. Darcy, his sister was the little blonde one. However, I also remember seeing a pretty little dark haired girl with laughing eyes. That was you, wasn't is Lisa?'
'Yes aunt, that was me. I grew up there as a girl with my real mother and stepfather...' I went on and told her the truth about everything. She told me that she guessed that much when she saw Liam and me together.
'Cherish that love my dear, it doesn't come around every lifetime. I have to return to the house now and I see a certain gentleman of you acquaintance, sitting over there very lonely.'
I looked to where she was pointing and I saw Liam, I thanked her and walked over to him.
Chapter 8 B Posted on Sunday, 18 April 1999
'Mind if I sit here?'
'Sure,' he looked up and said, 'oh hi Miss Bennet. How are you?'
'Not good, sir.'
'What's the matter?'
'You dear Liam. Why are you calling me Miss Bennet? Did I say something to upset you?'
'No, I'm sorry Elizabeth. I just have had a lot on my mind lately?'
'What is on your mind?'
'I was just trying to think of a way to tell you that I love you.'
'What did you say?' I thought that maybe I was hearing things.
'I said that I am head over heals in love with you. I have been for a long time.' He turned to look at me and see how I would react.
'How long, Liam?'
'Since you were 16, especially at the ball. All I wanted to do is dance with you the whole evening. You were the prettiest girl there and you still are. I love the way you laugh, the way you get angry at me, the way you tease me, I just love everything about you.'
'Really? I guess I didn't realize that.' I glanced at my watch and looked at the time. 'Oh dear, it's getting late I promised aunt I wouldn't stay out to late.' I started to get up.
'What? Ok, I will walk you back.'
I could see the hurt in his face, I finally decided that I better tell him now. I better tell him the one thing I have felt for a long time as well.
'I love you too, Liam.'
He instantly stopped, turned around and looked at me. I had a smile of my face. He walked over and picked me up spinning me around laughing.
'Liam put me down this instant. Is this how a proper gentleman behaves?'
'No Liz, not a proper one however, this is how one behaves when he is in love.' He said with a grin.
'Oh I see.' I was about to say more when Liam bent down and kissed me. There I was kissing the man that I love in the middle of the park for all to see. However, I didn't care.
Finally Liam realized the mortification in it and he decided that maybe it would be better if we went back to my aunt and uncles. One the way I told her that my aunt knows that I was Lisa. He let on that he sort of knew, by the way she was asking him all these questions about growing up.
When we arrived back to the house everyone was in a state of shock. A letter came from home telling us dreadful. It was from papa saying that a gentleman we all know is dead.
It seems that my dear stepbrother's way of trapping young ladies is over with. He was killed in a dual with Miss King's uncle. He was going to elope with her, the same as he tried to do with Gina. Miss King's uncle caught on and challenged him and poor George lost. Well I hope that he is burning in hell with his father.
After the plans were made for us (Jane, Charles, Liam, Gina, and me) to travel back to Hertfordshire in the next two days, Charles and Liam left. Liam wanted to get home as soon as possible to tell Gina. I walked him out and he kissed me, telling me he loved me. I told him I loved him as well and he left. I will end today's events in saying one last thing:
I LOVE LIAM DARCY FOREVER.
Chapter 9 ~ December 12, 18-- Posted on Monday, 19 April 1999
Well today was another tiring day, we all-Charles, Jane, Liam, Gina, and me-returned to Hertfordshire. Miss Bingley wisely decided to stay in London with Mr. and Mrs. Hurst. I guess Liam told her that he is not interested in her and now she wants nothing to do with Liam. Thank god.
Jane and Charles rode together in one carriage, and Liam, Gina, and me in the other. We had plenty of fun; we were laughing and joking around like old times.
We finally arrived at Longbourne and Kitty and Lydia were upset that dear Wickham was dead. 'Mama' was complaining about her nerves and the holiday approaching. Dear papa was in his usually spot, sitting in the library ignoring everything around him.
Liam, Gina, and Charles thought it was best that they leave. I too, retired early to get a good night sleep.
I still Love Liam forever.
Chapter 10 ~ December 15, 18-- Elizabeth Darcy, that sounds so right. Today I became Mrs. Fitzwilliam Darcy; we did something no one expected us to do. We eloped!
I'll start at the beginning. Liam and Charles called early this morning, Charles went straight to Jane, and Liam asked me if I wanted to go for a walk. No one in the family, except Jane and Charles, knows that Liam and me are in love. So 'mama' thinking she is getting ride of that 'odious' man, gladly accepted for me.
On our walk Liam told me that Gina was still asleep and that is why she did not join us this morning. We started to talk and laugh like old times and making new memories in the process. When he pulled me aside and kissed me passionately, when we parted, gasping for air he said:
'Marry me Liz, marry me my dear sweet friend.'
'Yes,' I cried joyously, for I had no doubt at all in my mind. I knew that I belonged with Liam for the rest of my life. He kissed me again and gave me his mother's engagement ring.
'She knew Liz, she knew that we would be together.' He kissed me again and said to my shock, 'Marry me today Liz, let's go to Gretna and elope.'
'What? Are you serious?'
'Yes! I don't want to wait any longer, I lost you once 6 years ago and I don't want to loose you again.'
'Ok, let's do it. No plans, no this and that, and especially nothing for dear 'mama' to fuss over. Oh, but wait Liam, what about Gina and my father?'
'I already told Gina that's the real reason she didn't join us. As for your father we can go tell him now.'
'Alright let's go.' I said smiling.
We went to father and I first told him of my life before coming to live with him. I told him that I loved Liam with all my heart, and we were childhood best friends. I then told him that we wanted to get married today, but with his consent. He told us that he suspected that something was up between us, and he was happy that I was happy. He also told us that it was very clever getting married today, 'no Mrs. Bennet fussing over every detail.'
So we left without telling anyone. It will be cool to see the look on 'mama's face when we return.
However, I have to stop my husband is coming. I will only add that I named this journal 'A Twist of Fate' because Fate decided on bringing Liam and me together. And just when we thought that we lost each other, a little Twist was put into play and we found each other again. Also, we will never loose each other.
I really have to stop writing know. I didn't realize how persuasive my husband could be at making me loose my concentration for writing.
The End