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Relieved that the gentlemen had left Wickham breathed a sigh of relief- then realised he was in a new situation and had no idea of what would happen next. He sat rather quietly -- lost in his own thoughts.
Adelaide had quickly determined the characters of the new residents of her household. Whilst Elizabeth, Darcy and Madeleine Gardiner had provided Adelaide with a large amount of background information on the Wickham's, Adelaide has tried to keep an open mind in order to form her own opinion on their dispositions. It became quickly apparent to Adelaide that all that Elizabeth and Mrs Gardiner had said was true, and if anything they had been rather kind in their portrayal of their behaviours and traits.
Adelaide found Lydia to be brash and fearless, seeking glory and attention by whatever means possible with little obvious joy in being a mother. George Wickham she found to be manipulative, greedy and devious, thinking he was due the type of life that Darcy enjoyed without putting in any effort at all, relying on his good looks and smooth words to achieve his aims, and young Fanny -- a small child confused by the constant moves and lack of interest of her parents, seeking a smile, a kind word and some small display of affection.
Of the three, Adelaide only had time for Fanny, but in order to assist Elizabeth and Darcy she would focus her attentions on ensuring that the entire family's situation was settled once and for all, and that those Adelaide dearly loved could enjoy a period of time where they did not have to wonder what problem Wickham was going to cause next. Because of these facts Adelaide held her tongue for the present and did not deliver the lecture to these two that they deserved -- instead she had tea served and insisted that young Fanny join them.
Lydia was horrified -- her first fine tea in this grand house being ruined by having to pay attention to her daughter.
Adelaide was shrewd enough to perceive Lydia's thoughts at this time, and instead of making Lydia take the first steps in learning to look after her own daughter Adelaide would take care of that aspect herself saying "Fanny shall sit by me for tea- she will never learn how to behave in public unless she is taught -- and taught correctly." Adelaide held the tiny hand and guided her slowly over to the table where tea was now served, and placed her gently on a seat beside her and placed her atop a pillow. It made Fanny high enough that her chest was in line with the table and her face had a good view of what was going on.
Adelaide placed a small sandwich, a piece of cut fruit and a small cake on the young girl's plate, and was pleased to see that she ate neatly and quietly, turning her small face towards Adelaide for approval. Adelaide smiled broadly, relieved to know that despite the lack of attention of her parents that the maids and nannies who had been in the employ of the Wickham's had instructed their small charge well.
Relief swept over Lydia, saved from the obligation of parenting, instead she could focus on enjoying the tea and ignoring her daughter -- pressing Adelaide for details of how far away they were from shops, was there any program of interest on at the theatre. All of these entreaties Adelaide politely deferred stating what little time that was left that day should be devoted to settling in --and they would discuss an agenda for the time of their stay the following morning. Lydia was satisfied with this for the present and resumed her enjoyment of her tea.
When tea was finished Elsie was summoned to recover Fanny, and the Wickham's were shown to their rooms upstairs. Adelaide had many guest rooms, and was quite selective of which rooms the Wickham's would occupy. She would not give them use of the rooms once occupied by her own daughter and Fitzwilliam's mother, instead choosing rooms that she preferred to give those not so closely related.
Upon entering the bedroom, Lydia gasped and flew about -- it was certainly the most grand room she had ever occupied -- far grander than even Jane's residence. The fabrics were plush and ornate soft to the touch, and the colours were rich and tasteful. Lydia took out the footstool so that she could jump onto the bed and bask in the luxuriousness of her new surroundings.
"Isn't it wonderful" she exclaimed. "Oh to live in such style --I am sure it is what I was born to - I could live in this room forever." This room fitted Lydia's idea of grandness perfectly.
"Well don't get too used to it -- we will only be here a week at most" said Wickham gruffly. He walked over to one of the windows that overlooked the street below.
The rooms Adelaide chose for them had a fine view of the main street. Wickham gazed outside and was dismayed to observe two well built gentlemen of similar ilk to those who had accompanied him on his journey from Longbourn. Well it seems I am to be guarded inside and out. This is going to be more difficult than I imagined thought Wickham.
Wickham had hoped that once he was in London he could plot a means of escape. With the crowds in the city and plenty of lanes and alleyways he felt if he could remove himself from the house and lose himself in the city -- ridding himself of family, obligations and threats. What he would do with himself and where he would go once he left he had not considered -- his priority was to flee from this current situation. Wickham moved into the small lounge that was attached to their bed chamber and made it known to Lydia that he preferred to spend his time alone until they were called for the evening meal.
Lydia decided to ignore Wickham's mood --he was often like this. She was happy to spend some time alone -- it did save ignoring him on purpose- and enjoy herself living in the best part of London, dreaming of the wonderful items she would buy.
The rest of the evening was fairly uneventful. Trying to dress to the standard of the household in which she was staying was a challenge to Lydia -- but she did her best and instead of relying on the advice of the maid that Adelaide had loaned her, she insisted on choosing the most appropriate items of her wardrobe herself -- and only managed to make herself look ridiculous.
The Wickham's joined Adelaide for dinner, Adelaide making general polite conversation that did not tax any of the party too greatly. What Adelaide thought of Lydia's dress and manners she kept to herself -- but did make a mental note of whatever items she assisted Lydia in purchasing, they would at least be fitting and have some measure of taste.
The following morning saw the Wickham's being required to rise much earlier than they were accustomed to. George Wickham was required to meet with Colonel Fitzwilliam and Mr Gardiner by half past nine, at which time he would be taken from Adelaide's residence to a barracks just outside of London in order that arrangements were finalised for his transfer with the regiment to Sydney town.
Lydia meanwhile was requested to meet Adelaide at the same time. Being used to sleeping late Lydia took breakfast in her room, and was rather grumpy at having to be ready so early in the day. Then she remembered that Adelaide had said something about shopping -- and she brightened up immediately -- why this could even be fun. She enquired of one of the servants where Adelaide may be found, and was led to a writing room just off the library on the ground floor.
Upon entering Lydia saw that Adelaide was at her desk writing -- Lydia's entrance caused Adelaide to cease her work and instead turn her focus to her guest. "And how does this morning find you Mrs Wickham?" said Adelaide not unkindly.
"Very well ma'am" said Lydia -- she was still a little in awe of Lady Lyell and unsure of how to conduct herself in such company.
"And how is your daughter this morning?" said Adelaide innocently.
"I have not had the time to visit with Fanny this morning, so I believe she is as well as I left her last evening" responded Lydia -- now a little concerned as to where this line of questioning was leading.
"Well I am happy to inform you that your daughter is quite well. We took some tea and ate some eggs together this morning. She slept well, has been read a story, and is currently being taken on a walk to the park" said Adelaide smiling to herself. She knew she had immediately exposed Lydia's lack of concern regarding her daughter, and wondered how she would respond to such an obvious demonstration of her disregard for her daughters well being.
Lydia stammered slightly before answering "...I thank you for your information, ma'am."
"Mrs Wickham,....Lydia....I am not a person to beat around the bush. It is high time that you learned to care for your daughter. Children are a gift from God and should be treated with affection and the utmost respect. Your lack of concern of your daughter is a major concern to me" said Adelaide in a firm tone.
"Well I have never really had the time" said Lydia not accustomed to being spoken to in this manner by someone she had just met. This is starting to be like the time I stayed with Aunt Gardiner only worse! Lydia had not even registered that Adelaide commenced using her first name without asking first.
"Not had the time? -- more likely not made the time. Life has priorities Lydia and you must observe them -- there is no time like the present to learn such things" replied Adelaide in her most matronly tone.
"Wickham has always taken care of the priorities and I have only been asked to ensure that the servants provided us meals at the appropriate time, that I cultivated connections that would further Wickham's situation, and that my dress was appropriate to the occasion we had been invited to" said Lydia becoming quite indignant. Lady Lyell may be rich and important but she has not right to speak to me this way thought Lydia.
"During your stay you will not have to be concerned about the organisation of meals and servants -- instead we shall use the time to prepare you for your forthcoming journey" replied Adelaide.
By preparation Lydia's thoughts immediately turned to shopping. Adelaide had much more than shopping in mind.
Lydia went on "I was going to ask you about when I could attend to some purchases. I shall need to be bought new things to be appropriately dressed for Wickham's position in his new regiment" said Lydia still oblivious to what was really happening.
"We shall see to it that you have the items appropriate to your needs" said Adelaide thinking but it is not what you think you will need.
"We?" said Lydia in alarm not realising how rude her response sounded.
"Your aunt and I" said Adelaide.
"My aunt Gardiner? How are you acquainted?" asked Lydia puzzled.
"We have been close friends for some time now. We met through your sister Elizabeth."
"Oh, I had no idea you were so close" said Lydia now concerned about what her aunt may have told Adelaide.
"I am not really surprised by your comment. Your aunt has been most kind in her friendship and company -- it has provided me some solace with Elizabeth living so much of the year in Derbyshire. Your aunt has kindly agreed to assist in organising your purchases. She is to come here in a half hour, and the three of us shall being arranging all of the items that you will need both for your journey and after you arrive in Australia" said Adelaide with a great deal of satisfaction -- she realised she had finally made some headway with Lydia who was now listening more attentively. If I can make her pay a little more attention to what I am saying I may finally get her to understand some of what she really needs to hear.
Madeleine Gardiner called for Lydia and Adelaide at the specified time and they made the first of many journeys around the warehouses and retail establishments in London. Over the following days many items were procured for Lydia and Fanny including dresses of serviceable fabrics, threads and ribbons, household goods including some china and cooking utensils, and some linen essentials -- sheets, towelling, and some furnishing items. All that the Wickham's had owned, apart from a few items of clothing, had been left in the south west during their late night flight. Anything of value had been quickly held by Wickham's creditors in lieu of the payments that had not been received.
Lydia was bored with this type of shopping. None of the fine clothes she had anticipated had been amongst the purchases. The colour of her items was pleasing, but none of the fine rich fabrics she had expected were bought for her. She still had not come to understand the reason for these purchases -- all of the household items she felt were totally unnecessary -- why they could be purchased by the servants once they arrived in Australia. Lydia had no idea that servants would be few and those available would be drawn from the convict population, and that as a young colony with most goods imported there was not a wide range of items available.
Fanny spent part of her day with her maid, and the rest with Adelaide and Lydia. Adelaide gradually trying to build a connection between mother and daughter, as Fanny would be totally reliant on Lydia during the voyage. Adelaide had consulted a physician about the slight cough that Fanny had displayed, and was advised that the air in London was the likely cause. He said the fresh air that she would experience on the journey, plus the drier climes in Australia would do much to alleviate her condition. Though not entirely close with each other, Lydia did learn a few ways of keeping Fanny occupied through the telling of stories and singing of songs. Adelaide was satisfied that it was a start at least.
Wickham was spending his days holed up in barracks in London -- under the watchful eye of Colonel Fitzwilliam who had taken time away from his parliamentary duties in order to see this situation settled once and for all. So thorough were the preparations by Adelaide and her contacts that Wickham could not see any chance for escape and remained resigned to his fate.
The day prior to their departure, when all of the necessary items had been procured, Adelaide decided to try and make Lydia fully understand what she was about to face. Adelaide felt that she should try and prepare her as best as possible. Now over twenty Lydia was no longer a child despite how she still chose to conduct herself. She needed to face facts and Adelaide was determined to do her best to make Lydia comprehend this.
Wickham was away receiving his final orders, so Adelaide took the opportunity to speak to Lydia before that evening when Mr and Mrs Gardiner would join Adelaide for the Wickham's a farewell dinner. Adelaide asked Lydia to join her for tea, and it was then that Adelaide made her move. "So are you prepared for your departure tomorrow?" asked Adelaide in a leading way.
"Yes, it seems that all is in order -- the main trunks were all packed and I believe were sent to the docks this morning." Said Lydia in a subdued tone.
"Lydia, is there something wrong?" asked Adelaide.
"Well, I am wondering why we made no purchases of dresses for balls and parties -- surely the regiments in Australia are the same as those in England?" she replied innocently. "I do not wish to appear to any disadvantage, it may not represent Wickham's promotion in the best light.
"Lydia, have you never stopped to consider why your husband has moved regiments so regularly, and why you left the south-west in the dead of night?" was the response Lydia received from Adelaide.
"Why Wickham was promoted to new positions, and we left late from the south west due to dear mama's illness" Lydia was adamant on her perception and understanding of her version of events.
Adelaide rose from where she was sitting and came to sit beside Lydia taking her hands. "Lydia, I am advanced in years and have seen and heard many things. Age and experience teaches us to look beyond the surface to find the truth underneath. Things are not always what they seem."
"But mama is truly ill -- papa and uncle Gardiner said so!" said Lydia dismayed. Her bravado quickly vanished replaced by teary eyes.
"It is not your mothers' situation that I am speaking about -- it is more to do with your husbands' career and the reasons for your many moves -- even this current one." Said Adelaide softly.
"Why should I not believe my husband?" said Lydia sharply.
"It is time you faced facts Lydia, your husband has a long history of not telling the complete truth" said Adelaide.
"And on whose word do you base your opinions? Elizabeth and Darcy? They seem to hate my husband" said Lydia in strong defence of her husband.
Adelaide decided to ignore the comment about the Darcy's and instead remained with the facts. "Your loyalty to your husband is to be complimented, even if it is misguided. Lydia, sometimes our love or affection for someone can make the truth hard to find. My opinions are based on facts -- and having to provide funds to make amends for your husband's debts."
"Debts? Why Wickham pays for everything through his commissions!" said Lydia stiffening with indignation.
"Lydia -- Wickham uses his funds, which are really the funds for the care of his family, for the purposes of gambling and drink. He feels he can make a fortune by taking speculative measures with your family finances -- and he thinks nothing about how he needs to provide for you and Fanny first. His record is not good -- not only has he not been able to meet his gambling debts, but he never settles his other debts with the townsfolk where your family been stationed." said Adelaide in a matter of fact manner, then went onto say "and by the way who do you think purchased those commissions?"
"How do you know this to be so? Wickham has always allowed enough funds for us to eat what we like, and to ensure that Fanny and I are dressed appropriately for a man in his station. And why should I be bothered how his commissions are arranged?" said Lydia starting to realise reluctantly that there may actually be an element of truth to what Adelaide was saying.
"I have witnessed documents concerning his debts -- I have even settled some of those myself and I am not on one to give away funds unless I have a full verification of facts and reasons" said Adelaide sternly. "Your sisters and their husbands have financed his commissions -- and I am not mistaken I do believe your sisters have supported both you and your husband through their own means."
"This cannot be so -- how could you or anyone else be duped into spending money to cover debts that do not exist?" said Lydia incredulously not wishing to own how much Jane and Lizzie had been applied to and been more than generous in providing Lydia funds.
"Lydia, I am no fool. It is you that Wickham has misled. I felt it important that you were aware of his true character before you departed for Australia -- you will need to be on your guard." Said Adelaide in tone that let Lydia know she was not about to be argued with and intimated that she knew a great deal more than she revealed.
"Why should I believe this? Why should I believe you? I have never had reason to doubt Wickham!" exclaimed Lydia.
"You have to believe me. For your sake and Fanny's. I have here some of his last debts from the far north that I settled on his behalf. I have just been handed more that relate to your time in the south east." Adelaide rose and collected some documents from her writing desk and returned to sit beside Lydia.
Taking the documents from Adelaide's hand, glancing quickly over them Lydia saw bills and charges, plus documents from a bailiff citing unsettled gambling debts, and details of a fracas that Wickham had started in a drinking house. Shaking her head in disbelief Lydia uttered "How can this be? Surely it is all a falsehood!"
Adelaide held Lydia's hands firmly and said "Lydia the time has come to face the truth. Your uncle and the Colonel are working hard to make Wickham understand that the commission in Australia is his last chance. He is fortunate indeed to gain the commission -- given his past he should be travelling as a convict".
"A convict? Why should that be? Said Lydia with tears now streaming from her eyes.
"Wickham has done more than enough to deserve such punishment -- others have received that sentence for far less and from being in circumstances that have forced them to steal food to feed their families -- what Wickham has done is far worse."
Lydia was now bewildered and frightened -- slowly starting to finally accept that the man she married was not really who he seemed to her at least-- how were they going to cope in a far off land without friends or family to support them? Is this the reason that many of her friends seemed to be sharing gossip and fun and stopped talking the moment she came near?
"I know what I have related may seem like a shock -- but if you look into your heart I think you know that it is true. This is one of the reasons why your aunt and I wished to see you equipped with all of the necessary items for your journey and to establish your life in another country -- we cannot count on Wickham to do what is necessary. You will need to take some responsibility Lydia for what happens to young Fanny and yourself, as you should not rely on Wickham to do what he ought." Adelaide sat and taking up a kerchief wiped the tears from Lydia's eyes.
Then Lydia began to shake and sob "What is to become of us? How shall we live and survive? What of the balls and parties? What will life be like? Can we come back if it is all too awful?"
Adelaide let her continue to cry in order that she could get such sentiments out of her system -- possibly then Adelaide thought she may be able to reason with Lydia, and perhaps make her see sense. Adelaide drew Lydia to her and stroked her hair until she calmed down, then she held her back so she could look her squarely in the eye. "Lydia, you have strength and courage, and a good mind if you choose to use it -- life has not asked too much of you until now. It is time you put your mind and your intelligence to good use. Life is not all about balls and parties. Use this as an opportunity to learn -- learn about yourself, how to be a mother, and friend and if Wickham has good sense to make the most of this chance -- you will have the opportunity to be a loving and supportive wife. Whatever the outcome, I have faith in you -- that you can achieve anything if you set your mind to it. What Wickham chooses to do I cannot predict, but you can determine how you and your daughter personally fare."
Lydia finally listened to information that her sisters and aunt had tried to tell her on many occasions before -- that she was responsible for her own destiny, and that she needed to cease treating life like a game, and as an adult that she had responsibilities. It was a lot for her to take in -- her mother had encouraged her to be unconcerned with responsibilities and demands, and everyone else had close to her had given up after countless endeavours.
Adelaide had arranged (although she would not tell Lydia so) that there was a means for her to return to England if things did not work out for her or Fanny -- but the grand old lady wanted to see if Lydia would rise to the challenge rather than give up in the attempt.
Given the emotions that had been spent that afternoon -- Lydia was exhausted and tired -- dreading facing Wickham with what she now knew to be true about him and now angry at the outcome he had brought her and Fanny. She did not even wish to face him. Her mind was in turmoil -- finding it difficult what to know or think. Adelaide could sense this, and thought some fresh air would do them both the world of good.
"Lydia -- I believe we could both do with some fresh air -- come with me my dear and let us go out for a time" said Adelaide gently. Her tone was now one of reassurance -- she was trying to build in Lydia the knowledge that she at least had faith that she could succeed and thrive in her new situation. Adelaide called her carriage to be brought to the front of the house so that they could travel out for a short while. Adelaide also had something else in mind -- she wanted to buy Lydia something special -- something pretty and elegant for Lydia to take with her -- given their progress that afternoon Adelaide felt that Lydia deserved a treat.
Lydia was surprised that she both enjoyed her excursion with Adelaide, and when in the end Adelaide arranged to visit an establishment that had an outfit that would suit Lydia perfectly she was amazed she had thought all of her purchases were complete-- nothing had ever been purchased by or for her that was so elegant and refined, or where the colour suited her so well. Lydia for once was genuine in her thanks to Adelaide who in return patted her on the hand and said "I am pleased you like it so my dear. When I think of you, it shall be in this outfit -- my memory will be fixed with your handsome image. Will you wear it this evening for me?"
"I will be glad to" said Lydia, and for once she was happy for the first time to do something for someone else.
That evening, when the Gardiners dined with the Wickhams and Adelaide, Lydia looked elegant and every inch a lady. Her appearance was complemented by a small jewelled cross would remind Lydia that Adelaide was thinking of her. Lydia was enchanted, and knew that the gift had indeed come from the heart and that the wishes that came with it were genuine. This Lydia was subdued - now lacking her usual confidence and bravado - she had much on her mind.
Aunt Gardiner was pleasantly surprised by both Lydia's behaviour and appearance that evening. She surmised that Adelaide had finally achieved to make a break through with Lydia (and knowing Adelaide would fully brief her later) and that perhaps Lydia was better equipped to meet what would befall her. She was even more surprised when Lydia approached her at the end of the evening to thank her for her help with the purchases and asked that her aunt pass onto Lizzie her love and best wishes. Adelaide may actually have reached Lydia in a way that none of us thought possible! Thought Madeleine Gardiner. I pray that this change of heart continues and serves Lydia and Fanny well on their journey and in their new life.
Wickham was too sullen and preoccupied to notice or comment on the handsome appearance of his wife, and had no consideration of what she may be feeling on the night prior to their momentous journey. He went through the mechanics of the evening, and was greatly relieved when the Gardiners finally left.
The tides determined that the Wickham's had an early rise in order to meet their respective ships in the Thames. They were not to travel on the same ship -- Wickham was to travel with a regiment transferring to Australia, and Lydia and Fanny were to travel on a ship with some other free settlers making the long journey. Having learned the truth about her husband she was grateful that she did not have to spend time in his company during the journey. There were 5 other ships travelling with them -- some with convicts, others with supplies for the colony.
Colonel Bradley, who was in charge of this particular fleet had arranged for some of his men to travel with the various ships that comprised the contingent due to sail -- but having been fully briefed by Colonel Fitzwilliam, Colonel Bradley was not going to assign Wickham to any duty where he could not be directly observed. He had specifically instructed his troops not to partake of drink or gambling during the journey --but knowing Wickham's history he would find it difficult not to start some competition amongst his fellow officers.
Adelaide had a few moments alone with Lydia and Fanny before they left in the carriage for their ship, both having decided beforehand that they preferred to take their leave at Adelaide's house rather than at the dockside. Wickham had departed earlier to align himself with his new regiment. Adelaide had witnessed that the parting between the couple which could not even have been considered amicable -- there was no sense of regard, respect or even affection on behalf of Wickham. Even if he retained no affection for Lydia, he showed no regard or affection for his daughter.
Given Lydia's new perspective on Wickham's behaviours Adelaide urged Lydia to remember what she had said, and encouraged her to write, and write often despite the delay and the distance --that putting thoughts to paper assisted in reviewing ones thoughts and learning from them. Adelaide also asked her to record her journey in writing so that Adelaide would know what it was like.
Lydia had not asked, so Adelaide did not say but knew it could be most likely a year or more before anyone heard anything of the Wickham's as their sailing to Sydney would take around 6 months. Adelaide wanted to know every detail of the journey, and of Lydia's life in a new land. Adelaide sincerely hoped that the small link she had forged with Lydia would weather the tyranny of distance and the inconvenience of infrequent communication.
Endnote........I think if Lydia had existed in modern times her text messaging bill would have caused Wickham to become bankrupt if nothing else did...and this part of the story was my attempt to have Wickham brought to some sort of justice -- even if he did get out of being a convict by the new commission.
Posted on: 2008-10-11
Lydia did keep her word and did write to Adelaide detailing every part of their journey. They were fortunate to meet a ship in one of their stops that was travelling back to England, so Adelaide was surprised and relieved to receive some correspondence within 4 months of Lydia's departure.
"And Lydia has remained a good correspondent -- this will be another of her letters keeping me apprised of her life in Australia" said Adelaide.
Elizabeth was surprised by what Adelaide had to relate. Adelaide managed to change Lydia? "How can she be so different?"
"I can see you are shocked -- just as shocked as Lydia was when I she finally came to understand what Wickham really was" said Adelaide.
"What did Lydia write you of her journey?" said Elizabeth still astounded by what Adelaide had related.
"That she found the journey pleasant, that she seemed to be a good sailor, and that Fanny's health improved greatly as the ships reached warmer climes. She related that some of her fellow travellers did not fare so well, and suffered greatly with sea sickness. There were a few other children on the journey besides Fanny, and for once the little girl had some company of people her own age and enjoyed the companionship of other children" said Adelaide.
"What did Lydia have to relate about Wickham?" asked Elizabeth.
"Not a great deal -- as they were on separate ships they did not see each other and I believe that suited Lydia. Wickham didn't bother to mix with Lydia and Fanny when the ships docked in foreign ports for fresh water and food, and only mentioned that Colonel Bradley seemed to keep a close eye on Wickham to ensure that he did not take to the drink while the ships were in port.'
"How did Lydia occupy her time on the journey?" Elizabeth enquired. She was now interested in what had happened to her sister.
"As they travelled onwards, Lydia found herself keeping groups of children occupied with stories and songs, and much to her surprise she found the task enjoyable. Being handy with a needle she helped other ladies to make over clothes while children grew on the journey, and assisted in turning some of the ladies rather plain clothes into something more stylish thanks to the ribbons and laces that your Aunt and I had purchased for her prior to her departure" responded Adelaide.
Elizabeth then asked "Did she have anything else to relate about the journey?"
Adelaide's response only gave Elizabeth a little information. "Lydia did not have a great deal more to relate about their journey. The rest of her correspondence relates to her life in Australia. That Wickham was much as he always was -- drinking and gambling --but he was unable to run up debts as he had in the past --and Lydia had the good sense to manage the money and only paid for things in cash." Adelaide laughed to herself "it seems she would take money from Wickham's pockets when he was a little worse for the drink -- and hide the money away. That curbed some of his drinking for a while -- but as a wily character Wickham soon worked that out. But Colonel Bradley was aware of him too, and ensured that some money went directly to Lydia so that Wickham could not touch it."
Elizabeth was now fearful of what Wickham may have done to Lydia and her niece "Was he angry towards Lydia and Fanny? Did he harm them while under the effects of the drink?'
"I believe he may have tried, although Lydia did not say directly -- probably not wishing to alarm me. Kitty may know more. But she has her wits about her and seeing him for who is really was saw her up to the task. Reading between the lines she did not have an easy time of it -- either with him, nor living in an outpost --but she made the best of the circumstances."
"Would she have been better staying in England?"
"I do not believe so --they would have continued from one financial disaster to another -- England is only so large! She seems happy enough now where she is. Other than that the major events you know -- Wickham's death as a result of drunkenness and fighting a year after their arrival, and her subsequent marriage to William Saunders 18 months years after that. I did offer for her to come back here at my expense before she met Saunders--but is seems that she was comfortable with her new friends and Fanny's health is much improved --having built a new life for herself it seems she was keen to continue it and saw her future there and not here."
"I am pleased that things have worked out for her and that she seems changed. I know that Kitty has maintained a correspondence with Lydia, but I am still rather surprised about your correspondence with her -- your characters are so different." Said Elizabeth.
"That may have seemed so at one time, but upon reflection they are not so different at all -- neither is your character or Lydia if the truth is acknowledged" said Adelaide.
"Are you saying that I am like Lydia?" said Elizabeth -- quite indignant that her character would be aligned with a sister that had caused so much grief and dismay and displayed so little regard for others.
Adelaide placed her hand on Elizabeth's -- the one that was still holding Lydia's letter. "You mistake me my dear -- I was not trying to insinuate that your behaviour had ever been like Lydia's. I was referring more to your spirits -- both strong and loyal, a strength to face adversity, and an openness to new perspectives once an initial stubbornness was overcome, and an ability to change your judgement about people."
Elizabeth coloured slightly. Here was Adelaide telling her what she knew Jane had tried to say for some time -- that Lydia had changed and that Elizabeth should give her a chance. Elizabeth had changed her mind about Darcy once she knew the facts, yet here she was reluctant still to give her own sister a similar concession. The truths that Adelaide had related did hurt -- but she knew in her heart that yet again Adelaide was right.
"So you are still teaching me lessons?" Elizabeth smiled as she spoke.
Adelaide knew then that Elizabeth would open up and view Lydia in a different light. "Not lessons my dear -- you are well beyond that. Consider it perhaps as a guiding hand to reconcile you to your sister."
"So once again I am in your debt" said Elizabeth.
"Not at all" said Adelaide quite seriously. "I am still in yours. I would never known you or Lydia, or your Aunt, or Jane or become reacquainted with Fitzwilliam, Georgiana and Richard if it hadn't been for you. You have made these recent years very happy ones, and made me feel useful again."
"And what am I to do without you?" said Elizabeth forlornly.
"Carry on my works -- promise me that at least" said Adelaide.
"Your works?" replied Elizabeth.
Adelaide said to Elizabeth "Cultivating correspondents, helping others find themselves, supporting those who need assistance."
"I could never achieve what you do!" said Elizabeth.
"Rot and nonsense. You have learned so much Elizabeth -- I am relying on you to continue it. You already do many good works around Pemberley. Corresponding with Lydia will only be part of it" Adelaide said.
"But I know nothing of Lydia and her new life. Where should I begin?" said Elizabeth.
"Ah, I can assist you there, and so can your sisters" said Adelaide. "For my own part I can assist you now. Can you open that drawer and locate the large brass key?" Adelaide indicated to a drawer in a cabinet beside her bed.
Elizabeth rose and went to the drawer. Opening it she saw a very large brass key that was greater in size than her hand. It was ornately decorated, embossed with a pattern on the shaft, and had a tassel on the end. "Is this the one?" she asked.
"The very one. Now if you go to my dressing room you will see a yew chest. The key will open that chest lid. Inside you will find a number of boxes held together by ribbons -- could you please locate the one with an emerald ribbon and bring it into me here?" Adelaide then watched as Elizabeth went to the room and returned with a yellow papier mache box embellished with a fleur-de-lis pattern secured with the emerald ribbon that Adelaide has specified.
"Here it is" said Elizabeth who walked back and then placed the box gently on Adelaide's lap.
The frail hand lifted to pull the bow apart, then push back the lid which revealed a box of letters. "These are all of the letters that Lydia has sent me. I have kept all of the letters I have received from those closest to me. Take and read them -- they will reveal your sisters new life and her thoughts. I think you will find them very revealing" said Adelaide.
"Perhaps I should read this new one to you first?" asked Elizabeth.
"You are right -- let us deal with the present, then you can take the letters to read of the past later. What does Lydia have to say?" enquired Adelaide.
Elizabeth read the letter aloud. The letter was quite long -- it seemed that Lydia commenced writing a letter to Adelaide prior to receiving the previous one had been sent. Given the length of the sea passage from Australia to England and the time to receive letters the letter covered a period of about four months, and closed with some answers to Adelaide's questions which much have been raised in an earlier letter.
Lydia spoke of her life, her joy in her relationship with William Saunders and their young family. Saunders, in stark contrast to Wickham seemed extremely responsible and well regarded in the town where they lived -- just to the south of Sydney town. Mr Saunders was a merchant-- running a dry goods store providing clothing and fabric to the townsfolk and Lydia outlined how she assisted in the store on occasion guiding ladies to the most fashionable purchases, and providing advice on how to make over clothing to align with the latest styles from London -- information provided to her by Adelaide, Jane and their Aunt Gardiner.
Adelaide went onto to relate to Elizabeth how William Saunders had taken on young Fanny as his own, and how the little girl enjoyed finally having a father figure in her life. Since their marriage Lydia and William had 3 sons, William Junior, and twins James and Ernest. "I know some of this information would have come to you via Jane and Kitty, but all of the details are in Lydia's letters -- read them and get to know your sister again in a different light."
"Thank you for these, and I shall take them to read later. Would you like me to write responses to all of your letters now?" asked Elizabeth seeing Adelaide sink back into her pillows a little further. Elizabeth noticed that Adelaide was tiring more easily as she slowly slipped from them.
"Later perhaps, I find myself a little tired now, but I think I may like a cup of tea. Could you have one brought to me please?" said Adelaide meekly.
"Of course, I shall see to it immediately. I believe my aunt wishes to sit with you for a while -- so I shall arrange the tea, and return to visit with you later" said Elizabeth, leaning over to kiss Adelaide on the forehead. Elizabeth picked up the box containing Lydia's letters and quietly left the room.
Upon entering the hallway, Elizabeth noticed her husband in deep conversation with their aunt Gardiner, who upon hearing the door click turned in her direction. "Good morning to you Fitzwilliam, I had hoped that you would take the opportunity for a little more sleep -- you have not had much of later" said Elizabeth saucily.
Darcy was not fooled by Elizabeth's bravado, knowing it was a mask to prevent her from displaying her true distress. "I believe my dear I have slept longer than you think -- the correct form of address at this time of day is good afternoon" said her husband smiling.
"My were we talking for that long? I had no idea, no wonder Adelaide wished to take some tea" responded Elizabeth. The housekeeper in the corridor needed no instruction. Upon hearing Mrs Darcy's comments she immediately arose and sent another maid to arrange tea to be brought to Lady Lyell.
"How did you find her Elizabeth?" asked Madeleine Gardiner.
"Quite bright. We have gone through all of her correspondence, but then she became fatigued and did not have the strength to discuss replies -- we will do that later."
"What do you have there?" asked Darcy looking at the small box of letters in Elizabeth's hands.
"Some letters from Lydia." Said Elizabeth matter of factly.
Madeleine Gardiner smiled quietly to herself --Elizabeth and Adelaide must have had quite a conversation. I will have a great deal to ask them both.
"Lydia?" said Darcy in a puzzled tone.
"Yes" said Elizabeth. "Come with me while I take some refreshment and I will explain it all." Elizabeth took Darcy's arm and proceeded towards the stairs.
"Meanwhile, I will take care of our patient" said Madeleine Gardiner and she returned to Adelaide's bedchamber.
Adelaide's butler Smythe met Darcy and Elizabeth at the bottom of the stairs. He quickly ushered them into the small dining room and arranged for a light luncheon to be served. Smythe informed Darcy that Mr Gardiner wished to meet with him in one hour to go through more of Adelaide's estate.
"That gives us plenty of time for a relaxing lunch" said Darcy to his wife and time to find out about Lydia he said under his breath.
Darcy and Elizabeth sat down at the table, Elizabeth asking one of the servants if they would place the box on the side table so Elizabeth could take them with her when the meal had ended.
"I will admit to burning with some degree of curiosity. Why may I ask has Adelaide given you a box of letters from Lydia?"Asked Darcy.
"Well it seems that what Jane and Kitty have tried to tell me is actually true -- Lydia has changed and changed for the better, and it seems that Adelaide is the person we need to thank." Said Elizabeth. "Lydia and Adelaide have corresponded regularly since she left for Australia."
"Why should Adelaide wish to correspond with Lydia? Lydia is not the sort of person that I thought she would befriend." He said in response thinking of the angst that she had caused them both in the past.
"I was not aware until this morning the extent of Adelaide's involvement in Wickham and Lydia travelling to Australia" said Elizabeth. "It was during that time I was ill after Emma was born."
Darcy said in reply "I was rather preoccupied with your state of health. At the time I cared for none but our own family. When you were finally out of danger and beginning to recover Richard, uncle Gardiner and Bingley told me that Wickham had caused more trouble, but that it had all been taken care of and that they had left the country with Lydia and Fanny. The details did not concern me -- all that mattered was that you were better, and that Wickham was not likely to cause us any further trouble. I did of course insist upon, and see to it that our relatives were reimbursed for the money they had outlaid on Wickham's behalf though whether or not they revealed the full extent of their expenses I could never confirm."
"Adelaide housed Wickham, Lydia and Fanny before they sailed for Australia -- during that time Adelaide was able to convince Lydia that Wickham was not the man that she thought he was, and that Lydia was capable of far greater things if she chose to be wary of Wickham's claims and statements." Elizabeth then went onto relate parts of what Adelaide had related ending up with how the revelation all came about -- through Adelaide's receipt of a new letter from Lydia.
"Trust Adelaide in achieving what no one else could -- it seems she has worked wonders with Lydia. I am very pleased for young Fanny's sake." said Darcy.
"These letters from Lydia explain her life and details since she had been in Australia -- Adelaide has given them to me so I can know her a little better" said Elizabeth. "Now I have brought you up to date with what Adelaide and I discussed, what was it that you were discussing with aunt Gardiner this morning?"
"As it happens I would like your opinion on the matter we discussed. I had a thought that Adelaide may enjoy an evening of music and company away from her bedroom" said Darcy.
"But she is too ill to go out" said Elizabeth.
"That is not what I had in mind. I thought perhaps if she was brought downstairs, and if I could persuade Georgiana and yourself to play some of Adelaide's favourite duets it may cheer her a little" responded Darcy.
"But that is likely to be very taxing for her -- won't that hasten her demise?" asked Elizabeth with concern.
"It may do at that -- but is it not better that she enjoy herself during the time she is here, rather than live longer and suffer from staying in the one room, and missing out on the things that bring her great joy?" said Darcy.
"Put that way, I must agree with your suggestion. But the question should be put to Adelaide -- we should not make such decisions on her behalf" responded Elizabeth.
"Quite so. I shall send word to your aunt to ask Adelaide immediately -- if we can arrange it for this evening we should do so -- I believe time is presently not on Adelaide's side and I would dislike for her to be disappointed" said Darcy. He signalled for the servant to come over, and he gave instruction for a message to be passed to Mrs Gardiner. "We should have a response soon, and then you can begin your planning and plotting."
"Planning and plotting -- how can you ever suggest such a thing!" said Elizabeth in mock indignation.
"Very very easily my dear given past history. And if our aunt, my sister and my wife have anything to do with it you shall have a grand time arranging a very pleasant evening for a very special lady." He said reaching over to take her hand and placing a kiss upon it. Whilst Darcy's words were spoken in jest, Elizabeth could easily see the deep love for her in his eyes.
By the time their lunch was finished, word had come back via aunt Gardiner that Adelaide was delighted with the plan. Aunt Gardiner would continue to sit with Adelaide, and while she was there seek out any special requests on Adelaide's behalf.
Georgiana was due to arrive at Adelaide's house at the same time Darcy was due to meet with Mr Gardiner, so when she did arrive, Elizabeth commandeered her and relayed their plans for the evening. The evening would commence with a dinner, and finish with music and conversation. As to the length of the entertainment -- they would take their cue from Adelaide seeing how her strength held.
Elizabeth and Georgiana had an afternoon full of diversion -- recalling a time when they could spend hours playing the pianoforte together without the guilt that is sometimes felt of avoiding other responsibilities. They could just be two sisters together enjoying each others' company just as they did after the Darcy's were married. Adelaide would have derived much enjoyment from watching them as they practiced in addition to hear their efforts. They frequently dissolved into laughter when stumbling over pieces that they had not played for many years.
Rebecca Fitzwilliam arrived shortly after Georgiana, and much to her amusement heard laughter and music echoing down the usually silent halls. The puzzled look on her face was addressed immediately by Smythe, who explained about the plans for the evening, and how Mrs Darcy and Lady Fitzwilliam were taking some time to practice for the entertainment.
Her only comment was to say "There seems as much laughter as practice -- though I am heartened to hear both -- I have not heard them laugh so in some time!" Rather than interrupt the sisters, Rebecca Fitzwilliam asked to be taken to Adelaide, so she could have some conversation and to find out what all of this was about.
Madeleine Gardiner was delighted by the way Adelaide embraced the suggestion of an evening's entertainment, but became concerned that she would wear herself out before the evening was fully underway due to the efforts she decided were absolutely necessary to make the evening a success. Mrs Gardiner found herself sending many messages to the household, and highlighting various requests for meals, dress, and room decoration. It indicated to those around her that she was very much looking forward to the evening and wanted everything to be perfect and presented in a style that brought her the greatest pleasure.
She was therefore greatly relieved when Rebecca Fitzwilliam arrived-- Rebecca was just the person to keep Adelaide amused whilst preparations were made -- and possibly distract her with conversation so she would conserve her strength for the evening. Once Rebecca Fitzwilliam knew what was afoot she asked Adelaide if she and her husband Gerald could attend. Adelaide readily acceded and was thrilled that it meant she would have a house full of guests, and an evening with those she was closest to. While the preparations were underway, Rebecca Fitzwilliam was pressed to keep Adelaide company and amuse her with conversation so that Madeleine Gardiner could see further to the arrangements.
Once the matter of the Matlock's attendance at the evening dinner had been settled, the two grand dames had to choose a topic of conversation to occupy their minds, and in the mood of the celebration afoot they settled on revisiting another celebration- that being the wedding of Richard Fitzwilliam and Georgiana Darcy.
It had been decided at the time of their engagement that the wedding of Richard Fitzwilliam and Georgiana Darcy was to take place in London early in the following June. Whilst Georgiana would have enjoyed a small family wedding at Pemberley, Richard Fitzwilliam's rise through the political ranks made it preferable that they were married in London under the eye of both society and government. Georgiana conceded realising that it was the beginning of her introduction to her life as a politicians wife, however, both were reconciled to the public display that would be required by their wedding would be compensated by the privacy of their honeymoon tour of Europe, which would provide them ample time for privacy that they both much preferred.
Given the successful coming out ball for Georgiana* that had been planned by Adelaide with the valuable assistance for Lady Margaret Neill and Mrs Rachel Emmerton-Walsh the formidable team of ladies were again approached as to their interest in taking on the task of preparing for wedding with the necessary assistance of Rebecca Fitzwilliam. Elizabeth and Darcy had no wish to spend an extended period in London as their son William was still so young, and both of them knew what delight Adelaide and her cohort took in arranging such events -- while the Darcy's drew no enjoyment from the fuss and preparation required for a major event.
Georgiana returned to London one month before the wedding, with the Darcy's (including their young son) arriving some 2 weeks after that. The Darcy's had timed their arrival in order to avoid the majority of the fuss, but this allowed some time with Georgiana just before her marriage and to oversee the final arrangements. Darcy quipped that all the ladies were concerned about was that he arrived in time to settle the bills.
Darcy had been heard to say when he had seen the guest list "How could we possibly know the 300 people who have been invited to this wedding breakfast? What happened to a family celebration?"
Elizabeth placated him saying "Hush now, don't upset Georgiana -- the list was drawn up with those most knowledgeable about these things who considered who needed to be invited and who best could further support Richard in the future -- don't make a scene." Elizabeth knew her husband's temper was short when it came to larger social events -- and not only was he required to foot the bill for this, but he also had to tolerate their house being overstuffed with gifts for the couple, and being subjected to a never ending stream of well wishers. She did not dare tell him about the additional 150 people who had been invited to the church alone fearing what he might say to that.
Elizabeth on her part was glad they had left it so late to arrive in London enjoying the smaller involvement in the last minute preparations, whereas Darcy was wondering why they could not have turned up the day before the wedding. His means of coping was to go off to sulk at his club, or to spend time sequestered in the nursery with his son.
Until the Darcy's arrived it had been decided that some public distance was maintained between the engaged couple. As Georgiana had no wish to remain alone in the large London residence belonging to the Darcy's that was located next to Adelaide's, instead it was decided that Georgiana would stay with Adelaide, meanwhile Richard would stay with his parents at Matlock House. This was there was no need to open the Darcy's London residence solely for Georgiana's stay, and it afforded Adelaide some special time with Georgiana.
Whilst Georgiana and Adelaide did discuss the wedding and all of its arrangements during her stay, there was a sufficient amount of other female discussion that took place that both delighted Georgiana and caused Adelaide to deny the years that the calendar had attributed to her. Had Darcy and Elizabeth known the substance of the conversation that had taken place in the period between Georgiana's arrival in London and that of the Darcy's - they would have been rather pleasantly surprised. Georgiana displayed all of the teasing and liveliness that she had learned from Elizabeth, and made all of the sentiments that could only have been attributed to a young lady about to married clearly indicating that she was most definitely no longer a child and in need of her older brothers' and sisters' care.
There was a joyous reunion between all of the Darcy's, the Matlocks, the Bingley's and the Gardiners at a dinner that Adelaide hosted the night before the Bennet's arrived. The Bennet's were to be hosted by the Gardiners, as with the wedding plans and arrangements for the breakfast that followed the wedding the Darcy's household was to be too busy to host a house full of guests. Elizabeth was grateful for the excuse as it meant that she could maintain a distance from her mother's impromptu and inappropriate comments, but Elizabeth did allow sufficient time to visit her mother every few days so that her parents could spend time with their grandson.
There were a few other dinners and parties over the two weeks before the wedding including one dinner hosted by Lord Clay to celebrate his engagement to Caroline Bingley. Caroline was hardly recognisable from the critical and haughty miss who made her dislike of Hertsfordshire and its inhabitants well known. She was now quite intimate with Jane and Elizabeth, and enjoyed visiting Adelaide when she had the opportunity. Theirs was to be only a short engagement as Lord Clay had to return to America to finalise some investments, so they were to marry only a couple of weeks after Georgiana and Richard and use a journey to America as their wedding trip.
Adelaide was approached to host the wedding breakfast for the Clays which she was more than pleased to do since she had originally introduced the couple. The Darcy's were asked to remain in London to attend their wedding and readily agreed. Georgiana however was disappointed that she would miss that particular wedding as she would be away on the continent enjoying time with her new husband. She reconciled herself to the fact that her journey and the privacy with her new husband would provide more than adequate compensation.
Darcy was to host a "gentleman's evening" a few days prior to Georgiana and Richard's big day. Georgiana had insisted that any such event take place a prior to eve of their wedding -- as if Richard was to over imbibe, which was highly likely given the circumstances and the company, she did not want him worse for wear on the day of the actual wedding itself. "I want him to understand what he is saying to me that day" she argued. Georgiana had heard stories about gentleman's parties and she was both fearful of what could happen to Richard in terms of both person and reputation.
After hearing this frustrated comment from his sister Elizabeth heard her husband mutter under his breath -- "It is more likely that she wants him in one piece for the rest of the wedding day".
To which Elizabeth admonished her husband soundly saying "That comment, my dear was inappropriate and you will be made to pay for it" and playfully swatted him on the arm.
In a voice that only Elizabeth could hear he said "and just exactly how do you intend to make me pay?"
"Perhaps an evening of solitude in your own rooms would suffice?" she said archly.
"Ah I am confident you would never use that ploy -- as it would affect you as much as me" he replied smugly.
Elizabeth found that she had no further retort as she knew he was right -- so she just glared at him a small smile playing on her lips. She would just have to think of something else.
As the gentlemen had plans to be engaged, Elizabeth decided to host a ladies evening for her sister. It was not to be a large party, only those most intimate with Georgiana to ensure her comfort with the arrangements given that everything else related to their wedding seemed to be on a much larger scale.
The ladies party ended up numbering no more than 20 and included Adelaide and her close friends, Aunt Gardiner and Aunt Matlock, all of the Bennet's, Jane, Caroline and Louisa and some other ladies that they had become closer to on recent visits to London.
The ladies had a dinner, and some entertainment, then began telling tales of their men and some of the antics that they had gotten up to. The ladies laughed heartily as stories were regaled of unusual behaviours exhibited by their men after too many wines, unnecessary purchases their husbands had made, men exaggerating trifling illnesses and extreme duress they displayed when items were misplaced items. The ladies on the whole were most relieved to know that they were not alone in their suffering. That God had made most men alike, and one lady had the confidence to voice that it was basically to provide amusement to women and give them something to talk about!
The men meanwhile had been planned to celebrate their evening at White's where the company could be monitored, and there was a lesser likelihood of inappropriate or scandalous guests. Despite the formal atmosphere of the club, Richard Fitzwilliam was well known and well liked there so the merry making went into the small hours of the next day. Richard quipped he didn't mind at all he was having an excellent time and said "....besides Darcy is paying so drink up gentlemen!"
Darcy taunted Richard saying "It is the least I can do for my new brother -- he knows not what he is letting himself in for."
Bingley said "Good heavens. What caused you to say that?"
"We married men have to bear the taunts and teasing of our wives -- I just hope Richard is up to the task."
"Yours may tease and taunt you perhaps, but mine remains an angel" said Bingley, ever ready to defend the serene countenance of his sweet and precious Jane. The other gentlemen were heard to guffaw loudly in the background.
"However yours Richard, has been under the tutelage of mine -- so you are warned!" said Darcy.
"You seem to bearing up rather admirably?" retorted Richard.
Darcy had consumed some glasses of a rather excellent red and was rather merry but was still in full command of his faculties. As a result his response was delivered rather melodramatically but with a huge grin on his face "A point I shall concede and admit that I would not have my dearest wife change at all. However it would still be wise to keep your wits about you."
They continued in the same manner until the last of their guests had left the club, then Darcy saw Richard safely home before returning to his own house with a rather merry Bingley in tow. Darcy had given his commitment to his sister that he would see Richard home safely and Darcy could not even bear to think what Georgiana would say if he had to confront her with stories of an injury to Richard's actual person. By the time the gentlemen had arrived home, the party Elizabeth had given Georgiana had long finished, and the ladies were all safely and soberly in bed.
Elizabeth and Georgiana had retired early, whilst the gentleman's party was still in full swing. Elizabeth knew she should have "that" chat with Georgiana at some stage, and that evening seemed better suited to it than most. She did not know when they would have another such opportunity. As Darcy was not home, the ladies had a girlish talk first, discussing the evening and all that had transpired. In the end Elizabeth did not have to broach the subject as Georgiana mentioned it first.
"Lizzie, may I ask who spoke to you before your marriage?"
Having developed a close and loving relationship with her newest sister, Elizabeth quickly knew what she was about. "Are you talking about a wife's obligations?" she said obliquely just in case she had not interpreted Georgiana's intention correctly.
"In regards to her husband...y.y.yes. I have no one else I feel comfortable in asking" she said while blushing.
"I am happy that you asked, however I will say that I did intend to speak with you some time over the next few days on such matters. To answer your question -- both my mother and my aunt, Aunt Gardiner that is, spoke with me, but I will spare you my mothers' conversation, and focus instead on what my aunt had to relate."
Georgiana had developed her own sense of humour under the steady guidance of Elizabeth, and could not resist in asking -- "Was your mother's own advice of no importance?" Elizabeth was still fairly recently married and as such, Georgiana quite correctly thought that Elizabeth's advice would be more readily suited to her own situation.
"If you insist -- I will retell it -- but believe me it was of no use at all. I do feel that if we had followed my mothers' advice, we should not be blessed with our William!"
Both of the sisters laughed. It was an embarrassing subject to be sure, but one that both knew had to be discussed before a wedding.
"It is probably best that I discuss my aunt's advice first, then my own " said Elizabeth after they had stopped laughing.
"Very well then -- what do you have to impart?" asked Georgiana.
"My aunt gave me very simple advice, knowing how I love your brother, and how he loves me -- it was simply - follow your instincts. It is an excellent place to start."
"It makes sense, but at the same time is difficult to understand. But what of your own advice?" asked Georgiana.
"It is much easier when you know your husband truly loves you -- as Fitzwilliam loves me, and as Richard loves you. Be guided by your husband -- he wishes that your love be a celebration of all that is wonderful and that you both derive pleasure from a meeting of your souls."
"But is such a thing possible?" said Georgiana still very confused.
"Yes it is -- and it will make more sense at the time even if it does not now. Do not be afraid of the feelings that may rise in you when you are embraced and are kissed -- they are perfectly natural responses between people with deep feelings for each other. And don't be afraid of voicing those feelings either."
Blushing profusely Georgiana finally admitted "Is it wrong to say that you enjoy being kissed?"
"Society teaches us much, and yet leaves us ill advised in many areas. With regards to relations between a man and a woman in marriage -- society and my mother would have you believe that it is a duty to be borne, not enjoyed and that you should deny any feelings that arise from a kiss or embrace. However, the reality is quite different, particularly when you are in love with your husband."
"I was beginning not to know what to think -- Richard is so much more worldly than I."
"Just because he is older, and more worldly as you put it due to his experiences in the military, he is still likely to be just as nervous as you. It is best that you do not think about it at all -- as Aunt Gardiner said -- go with your instincts, and know that within marriage such feelings are right and just."
"So then the feelings that arise when you are kissed should be encouraged? Having read some books it makes me think that I may be considered wanton" said Georgiana seeking a reassuring embrace from Elizabeth.
Elizabeth cradled her and gently stroked her back "You should not feel wanton at all -- it is not wrong to desire to be near to your husband -- just other men -- remember your Commandments, and what the Bible teaches us about marriage --then you cannot go wrong."
"If you say so Lizzie." Said Georgiana huddling herself in Elizabeth's embrace.
"Trust me my dear heart -- to discuss such matters makes everything seem strange -- put your faith in the love and security that comes from your husband's embrace- it will be much better then." Elizabeth kissed her sister and cradled her knowing that with a loving husband that she too would discover a warmth and contentment difficult to describe in words.
The day of the wedding finally arrived.
Darcy was quite put out that he could not witness Richard's early morning distress and nerves, as Richard had witnessed his nerves on the morning of his own wedding and as was to be expected had teased him rather mercilessly about it. "It is not fair -- I should have been accorded the same privilege -- oh to see him pacing the floor --nerves clearly on display"
"Describe them for me my dear, so I know how you were on the day we were married. I am sure I would find it most amusing" said Elizabeth.
"Just as I would find it amusing in asking Jane how you were, but I digress -- how is our bride this morning?"
"Blissfully happy, however most concerned that something will go amiss, and dreading a crowd of onlookers" replied his wife.
"I understand about dreading the crowd of onlookers, but that cannot be avoided now. As to something going amiss that is highly unlikely with the amount of planning that I have witnessed. Ah behold the bride!" said Darcy as Georgiana entered the breakfast room for a very early breakfast. As the wedding was at 11, there was still much to be done.
"Please Fitzwilliam, I would just like a quiet breakfast with my brother and sister -- can we try and not mention the wedding once during breakfast?" begged Georgiana.
"Having second thoughts?" quipped her brother.
"Fitzwilliam -- enough already -- leave Georgiana alone. Can we please enjoy this breakfast in peace? . William is still asleep and I for one wish to enjoy this special breakfast" said Elizabeth
Elizabeth had missed a few breakfasts since arriving in London, most being put down to William, but Darcy knew the other reason for Elizabeth's absence. They hadn't shared their news with Georgiana, not wishing to take away any focus from her wedding. Georgiana was to find that out that other reason soon enough. The moment Elizabeth glanced at the eggs and bacon on her plate she flew from the room, hand over her mouth.
"Is Elizabeth alright? Why it is just like when....oh... is there something you are not telling me?" said Georgiana -- the pieces falling into place.
"Something like the fact that you may have another nephew or niece around February?" said her brother with a smug grin.
Georgiana flew out of her chair and went to embrace her brother "Oh Fitzwilliam -- why didn't you both tell me? Wait until I tell Richard -- he will be just as thrilled as I am."
"We had decided not to tell you yet as we did not want to take away from your wedding -- this new child obviously has other ideas."
"I think it the most delightful wedding gift"
"I believe Elizabeth would currently view it as something less than delightful -- just let me go and make sure she is alright" he rose to go but just then Elizabeth appeared back at the door. "The bride has worked out the reason for your sudden absence...it seems our news is no longer hidden." Darcy took her arm to lead her back to her chair "Can I get you something"
Elizabeth slid thankfully into her chair -- "some black tea and some dry toast -- I will see if I can keep that down"
"Elizabeth I am so happy for you both, but will you be alright for the wedding?" asked Georgiana concerned about Elizabeth's obvious discomfort and pallor, but wanting to ensure that Elizabeth would be there as she was to be one of the witnesses.
"I shall be fine -- this usually passes by 10 at worst -- be most certain I shall not miss your wedding -- heavens look at the time -- we should be going to Adelaide's"
"Georgiana can go now -- and you can at least stay until you have had some tea -- you will not be delayed long" said Darcy reverting to his role as protector.
"I see that I am not being given a choice" said Elizabeth -- pleased for the care and concern, but anxious to help Georgiana make ready. "that being the case dear sister I shall join you soon."
Georgiana was to dress at Adelaide's using her mother's former rooms. The Darcy household was busy with the preparations for the reception, and it had been decided that the bride needed a household which was a little calmer that one preparing for a large celebration.
Elizabeth soon joined her, and little more colour now evident in her cheeks and together with Adelaide the bride was quickly dressed, in a magnificent cream silk gown that had been embroidered with delicate flowers and ivy around the hem. The maid put the finishing touches to her hair that had orange blossoms interlaced amongst her curls with some pearl pins to secure some of her tresses.
Georgiana carried a posy of gardenia's and wore a necklace that had belonged to her mother. This had been matched with a bracelet of fine pearls which was a gift from Adelaide. The lace she wore with her bonnet had again been her mother's -- the colour matching the cream of her gown.
Elizabeth had tears in her eyes as she embraced her sister -- "You are so beautiful." She left Georgiana for her brother to escort, and made her own way downstairs to travel with Adelaide and the Bingleys to the Abbey.
Darcy was soon to utter the same sentiment when he shortly afterwards collected his sister at the door. He escorted her to the coach, and the privacy afforded to them during the carriage ride to Westminster Abbey allowed Darcy to express his pride in her. He also uttered that he was certain that their parents were watching them both -- offering their silent observations of their pride and pleasure in her wedding and a blessing on her union.
They made their way to Westminster Abbey- which had been decided on as the most appropriate place for the wedding given Richards occupation. Once they had arrived and walked up the stairs to the entrance, Darcy and Georgiana waited until for the sign to commence the ceremony. They were asked to remain in the porch, and the wife of the verger took the opportunity to smooth out Georgiana's dress to remove the evidence of her sitting in the carriage on the journey to the Abbey. Once this was completed Darcy moved forward to take her arm. Darcy found that he was shaking almost as much as Georgiana.
"I did not expect such a large crowd" he said while thinking that the congregation was far larger than the number he had been told of.
Georgiana was the one to calm her brother -- "I did given the guest list, but when I worried about it earlier your wife gave me some excellent advice -- focus your eyes on the man you love and pay no heed to anyone else."
"Excellent advice, but I may make one small change for myself?"
"What do you mean?"
"I think I would rather focus my gaze on my wife rather than the man you love."
The small laugh she gave reassured him. "I quite agree."
"That being sorted -- I think the music is indicating we should proceed?" With that Darcy led his sister down the lengthy aisle that belonged to Westminster Abbey.
Georgiana said nothing more, only once more looking up at her brother, and then her gaze moved to become fixed solely on the man she was to marry. That action, more than anything else indicated to Darcy that Georgiana's reliance had permanently transferred from himself to his cousin. Whilst he was somewhat sad at what Georgiana's action imported, he did not object to it in the slightest -- it was not only just, but it was right. He knew now that he could totally focus on his wife and his own family, rather than sharing his attentions in caring for a younger sister as if she were a daughter. The realisation of this did not lessen his sense of loss, but he was reconciled to that fact when his own wife locked her eyes on his. Her mute understanding of his feelings resulted in a reassuring smile that he knew was only for him -- and this warmed him in a way that nothing else could possibly have done.
The ceremony seemed like it was over before it began. As could have been predicted Rebecca Fitzwiliam and Adelaide shed a number of happy tears, and if the grand ladies had managed a look at Darcy, and even Gerald Fitzwilliam would have seen their eyes glistening too.
Elizabeth managed to utter a few words to Caroline Bingley before leaving the Abbey on her husband's arm saying "In a few weeks we shall witness your marriage Caroline!"
The wedding breakfast at the Darcy's London residence was all that was splendid yet not ostentatious. The Darcy house was crowded with the invited throng, and Georgiana and Richard were extremely grateful when the receiving line was no longer required. They had only managed a few moments alone in the carriage between the Abbey and Darcy House.
The newlyweds managed to surround themselves with their closest family who provided some sort of protective barrier to the other guests, so they could partake of some refreshment and accept the wishes of those closest to them. Richard finally spoke to Darcy to indicate that they had enough, and should begin their trip to their estate near Cambridge. Richard Fitzwilliam managed a few words to his new brother saying "My wife tells me congratulations are again in order -- why didn't you say? We could have had a toast the other evening"
"I thank you for your congratulations however Elizabeth and I wanted all of the focus to be on you and your wife, uncle Richard. I have however noted your pride in calling my sister your wife" Darcy said in response.
"I must admit I have been longing for some time to call Georgiana that"
"I well know the feeling."
"I am sure you do. But while I have the chance -- thank you for everything. Words are inadequate to express my feelings and gratitude. "
Darcy responded firstly by a brotherly pat on the shoulder before he said "It has been our pleasure, but do I detect a desire to remove yourselves from this crowd of well meaning, but rather loud guests?"
"My thoughts precisely" said Richard.
"Then I shall see to it. Very soon you shall have your wife to yourself." Darcy, fully understanding their need to remove themselves from the breakfast arranged for the family to escort them to the entrance from where they could take their leave.
Wishes were bestowed on them by family and friends, the last embraces and kisses being given by the Matlocks, Elizabeth and Darcy. They knew they would see the couple in a few days, so that they could take their leave before they departed for the continent, so the farewells were joyous and not at all sad.
Even though their June wedding ensured that the summer days were long, the couple had wearied of the large crowd of guests, and took their leave of the wedding breakfast shortly after two in the afternoon, making their way in a coach that had been the wedding gift of the Matlocks.
Richard and Georgiana had decided to spend their wedding night at the Cambridge estate that Richard had been managing on behalf of Adelaide as it was within reasonable distance of London and would afford them some privacy. Richard was hopeful at some stage they could approach Adelaide about purchasing the estate, so by spending their wedding night there it would provide a sentimental link to it. They were still to secure a residence in London but had decided that the purchase of Lyellton with some of Georgiana's dowry would be better in the long term. Adelaide and some of her contacts had been pursuing opportunities for a house to rent in London since their engagement was announced, but no suitable London properties had yet been found.
The couple were relieved to arrive at Lyellton, and were met by their butler Percy, a steward that Richard had employed called John Hansen, and the housekeeper Mrs King. The trio that ran the house joined the rest of the household in congratulating the couple and the newlywed's were informed that some tea and cake had been set out for them in Richard's study.
If the choice of venue for the serving of tea was unusual for a couple first arriving at their estate as husband and wife both were too polite to comment, still overwhelmed by the events of the day and the large number of people who had been invited to the celebration. However it soon became apparent why the tea was set out this way -- it was to ensure that the couple saw the last of the gifts they were to receive on that day at least. Adelaide had already given the couple a number of mementos but had intended for a few more to surprise them on their arrival at Lyellton.
A selection of James Lyell's swords that had adorned his study wall in London had arrived to grace the walls of Richards. As a former military man he was very touched by the gift, and knew that they would add to the ambiance of his room. Georgiana had been given the desk that had been her mother's favourite, and the chair that matched. It was enough to bring tears to her eyes realising the significance of the gesture.
Richard embraced his wife kissing away her tears, and then noticed a package addressed to them both laying on the desk that had formerly belonged to Lady Anne Darcy. Richard picked it up and undid the ribbon that bound the parcel, unwrapping some documents and a letter.
"What is it?" asked Georgiana.
The contents of the package shocked Richard Fitzwilliam. He caught his breath enough to say "....Good heavens -- it is the deeds to this estate ....and a letter" which he then read aloud.
My dears,
I had my will amended some time ago as I intended for you to have this estate on my passing. However, I preferred to see you enjoy this gift while I am living, rather than wait for you to receive it when I am gone.
I know that you Richard already have affection for this estate, and I am sure in time Georgiana will become just as fond -- just as much as she loves Pemberley. It is only right that it belongs to those who can love and care for it.
I hope you will enjoy having the other items that are now in your safe keeping.
Now you can pursue a London property instead -- my only request is of a selfish nature that it is one that is within a reasonable distance of me.
Enjoy my children,
With the fondest affection
Adelaide
Rebecca Fitzwilliam uttered "You were very good to give them that property on their wedding."
"They were better to have it then -- and not now. They have vastly improved it, and as a consequence it meant that they could afford the residence down the street from here so that we could all remain close to each other. It has been such a boon to have them so near -- so it was all to my benefit in the end!"
*Georgiana's coming out ball was described in Chapter 16