According to
Plan
Chapter Twenty-Five
Anne
was glad that Mr. Newman had spoken up to tell his mother that Thomas needed to
go to bed. She had not dared to take the child away from Mrs. Newman, who had
not even allowed her daughters more than a minute with him.
Mr.
Newman had given the boy back to Anne and she had taken him to the dormitory.
She wondered if the family were talking about her now. It was very likely and
she did not mind. It was better than receiving questions in person, or indeed
being told she was pretty. She might be, she supposed, but it was not of much
use if she never talked.
Her
future sisters did not talk very much either, not yet. They were a few years
younger and had been brought up to be extremely prudent conversationalists.
Anne wondered how Mrs. Newman, with such well-behaved daughters, really looked
upon her son. There was no doubt that she was fond of him, but he had quite
clearly not attended her school, or he had forgotten all of his lessons.
Anne
pushed a bed against the wall, another bed against it and tucked Thomas into
the furthest bed. The arrangement did not reassure her much. He could still
topple over the headboard if he tried -- and he was too excited to sleep. It
was better to heave the mattress onto the floor to sleep there. He might crawl
away, but he would at least not hurt himself.
Thomas
sat watching her as she worked. He looked rather uncomprehending and she
explained it to him, although she did not have any hopes of him understanding
the explanation. She tapped the bed when she was done, inviting him to crawl
towards her. He laughed and crawled the other way.
"Thomas!"
she cried. Although she was not yet dressed for sleep, she lay down under the
blankets to see if that had any effect on him. It did not immediately work and
she sat up again. Of course she could grab him, but perhaps he could already
listen. "Thomas? Come to me."
These
words only served to bring Mr. Newman to her. He sat down on the other end of
her mattress.
"Where
did you come from, sir?" she asked with a start.
"The
door. Am I to sleep on the floor as well?"
"You
are to sleep wherever you like, of course, but I thought Thomas and I had best
sleep on the floor so he cannot fall. I thought I should be nearby so I can
hear him move about."
"I
wish you had waited for me to move the mattresses."
"Why,
sir?"
"It
looks like hard work."
"It
will be much harder work to get them back onto the beds when we leave. I shall
wait for you then," she said with a little smile.
Robert
had never noticed a problem with Thomas around bedtime at home, certainly
nothing that had required his assistance and he had not counted on having to
help here either, but Thomas decided there was something not to his liking and
he became unmanageable.
There
were distressing sounds coming out of the room with the washbasin and Robert
wondered why he was not called in for help. He listened from behind the door,
but his questions and knocks went unheeded. When he could not take any more of
this frustration, he entered.
It was
clear why Anne had not called him in -- she was not fit to be seen and Thomas
was not giving her any chance to change that. He was crying very loudly and he
had spit on everything in sight, or perhaps he had spit in one place and
crawled through it.
Thankfully
Anne displayed some sense by not being angry that he had come in, Robert
thought, but a second later he doubted her sense when she, not properly dressed
and covered in disgusting stuff, threw herself into his arms. Now he was dirty
too. He wanted to look at it in dismay, but he saw nothing but shoulders.
"Well, this is one way of ensuring I cannot see anything," he
remarked.
"I
wonder how you can even think of seeing anything at this moment!" she
exclaimed, sounding very upset.
Her
face, at least, was clean and he gave her a kiss. "Be calm and tell me
what happened."
Her
lip trembled. "I was almost in my nightgown when he began to spit. I
picked him up when he was done, because he sat in the middle of it, and then he
had some more to share -- which is now all over your shirt. I am sorry."
Robert
kept a firm hold on her. "Think nothing of it. Is he empty now?"
"I
did not even know he was this full!"
"Does
he have an upset stomach, do you think?" He glanced at his son, who sat on
the floor looking pathetic, but at least he was not crying with sound anymore.
"Is he ill?"
"I
do not know." She sounded miserable and she hid her face against his
shoulder.
There
was a problem, but it had to be solved. "Anne, listen. Fill the washbasin
and clean Thomas first. Then we put him in bed and see to ourselves. If we
first change into something clean, he will get us dirty again because he has no
idea he is dirty."
"I
do not want to move."
"I
understand that, but if I must spend much longer in this stench, my stomach
will be upset as well. Please."
She
groaned and turned to fill the washbasin. Robert began to undress Thomas and
tried to keep himself as clean as possible. He talked softly to his son as he
worked. When he turned to see if the washbasin was full yet, he saw Anne was
wearing her nightgown. "Anne," he sighed, although he was somewhat
amused at her smugly challenging look. "If that gets dirty you must sleep
all night without one."
"Under
the circumstances that is very inappropriate teasing," she said a little
stiffly. "Your mother would not approve, nor of my walking about without
being properly dressed."
"My
mother considers you to be my wife and wives do not care."
"This
one does."
"You
are a character, miss." He lowered Thomas into the washbasin and was
treated to a new burst of wailing. "Oh, he does not like cold water. Well,
we have no choice. I shall make it quick." He splashed enough water onto
Thomas to clean him.
When
he was finished Anne wrapped the wet boy into a towel and rubbed him warm.
"The poor little thing. Oh, Mr. Newman, would you please keep that
on?" she cried.
"No,"
he replied, rinsing his shirt. "It is dirty and it smells."
"It
is very distressing."
He
refrained from looking at her. "I would rather you got used to the sight
than that I got used to the smell."
"I
do not know if I wish to be married if being a wife is so distressing,"
she said in a small voice.
He
pulled his shirt back on. The wet spots made him shiver, but he hoped they
would dry quickly enough. "There. All your distress can now be over.
Although, really, you could have left the room as well."
"Yes,
I suppose so, but I thought not looking would be easier." She gave him a
covert glance. "What are you going to do in a wet shirt?"
"I
must arrange for someone to clean the floor first. Why do you and Thomas not
lie down?"
Anne
had placed Thomas in his bed. He had quieted down and she hoped he would not
spit again. It might be the change of scenery that had brought on the sickness.
He might have been overexcited by seeing so many new people and having to go to
sleep in such a strange-looking place. She talked to him softly so he would
forget where he was, while keeping an eye out for Mr. Newman.
She
had behaved in a very silly manner, she feared, by throwing herself into his
arms so desperately. He would have preferred her to handle the situation
adequately, like he had done himself. She was not yet a good mother. Perhaps
she would still learn.
As
for being a good wife, Mr. Newman's ideas of a good wife puzzled her. He seemed
to want her to run about with very little clothing on, but that was odd. She
reflected on the matter until he returned, but it could only be cleared up by
asking him questions.
He
had managed to change into his nightshirt somewhere and he looked all ready for
bed. "Has he spit again?" he asked, looking down at them.
She
sat up. "No, sir."
"Good.
My mother thinks he might simply be tired or upset. She did not think he
sounded ill, but if he does anything odd during the night we can wake her."
"Your
mother," Anne repeated in alarm, although she was relieved by Mrs.
Newman's offer. She was not certain she would have her woken, but the idea that
she would not have to deal with anything all by herself was reassuring. "I
hope you did not relate all the particulars to her."
He
smiled a little. "Oh, which?"
"Those.
And what should a good wife do, I wondered?" Anne asked her pressing
question.
He
smiled some more. "Precisely what do you think you did not do right?"
"Well."
She looked confused when his smile implied there was nothing. There should not
have been such a mess, for one, and there was more. "You did not think I
should have put on my nightgown."
"I
did not think it would be possible for you to do so in the middle of
doing everything else," he corrected patiently. "But I am in awe of
your ability to think and do two things at once."
Her
confusion had not lessened. "Are you serious?"
"Almost.
I want to be serious, but I cannot be."
"Why
not?"
He
knelt beside her mattress. "Please, I am trying. I cannot be entirely
serious because I do not perceive any problem. Well, one," he added
reflectively.
She
gasped. "Which is?"
"Sir.
You must not call me sir. You must practise not saying it. Perhaps I should not
listen to you unless you say Robert." He considered that idea. "Yes.
Now wish me good night."
"Good
night."
"Good
night, Anne."
"Good
night," she maintained stubbornly.
He laughed at her and went to his bed.
It
was only the first night that had been problematic. The remainder of their stay
passed without distressing incidents. Consequently Anne's greatest problem had
been Mr. Newman wishing to be called Robert. He had persisted in reminding her
at least once a day, but although she had stopped addressing him as Mr. Newman
altogether, she could still not bring herself to speak in such a familiar
manner. She did think of him as such, but she wisely did not let him know.
Anne
had thought it vital for good family relationships to have a little more
courage while talking to Mrs. Newman, to whose daily concerns she could more
easily relate than to those of rich ladies of leisure who were chased by
gentlemen of leisure, both of whom had too much time to ride around. There was
something more real about the less wealthy, she felt, although the duchess'
problem had been very real as well. It was, however, not something that
occurred to ordinary women.
Mrs.
Newman began to consider her a model of good sense and one to whom the
upbringing of the two male Newmans could be trusted. Her advice about Thomas
was welcome, whereas her advice about Robert bordered on the amusing. Anne did
not know if she should follow it all. Perhaps he had peculiar methods that did
not quite suit his mother's notions of propriety and breeding, but they were
effective.
The
dormitory arrangement was something that did not sit quite well with Mrs.
Newman, although she stressed she had had no other choice. "I could never
recommend such an arrangement under different circumstances. You must not think
I would."
"I
never thought so. I should not easily have agreed under different
circumstances," Anne assured her.
"Not
easily?"
"I
can trust ... Mr. Newman." She could not yet say his name to his mother. She
would have to say it to him first. "But we were not ... so familiar with
each other as to make me very comfortable with the arrangement. I accepted it
because there was no choice."
"You
were not, but you are now?"
"I
am very thankful for not having it all sprung on me at once," Anne said
cautiously. "Because that first evening when Thomas spit on everything and
Mr. Newman washed the spit off his own shirt in my presence I really thought
marriage would be too distressing for me. But he never did it again."
"Thomas?"
"No,
Mr. Newman. So perhaps it is not as distressing as it seemed."
Robert
had spent some time with his sisters while Anne spent time with his mother.
They turned out to be far more curious than their mother would allow, yet for
fear of being berated afterwards he tried not to tell them too much. The two
eldest who lived at the school had caught on that he was not yet married, but
the youngest had not.
The
two eldest questioned him hesitantly in private. They were elegant and educated
young ladies, and could not display too much curiosity. "But how could
Mama put you in the dormitory?" asked Evie. "She could have used our
room for you."
"No,
she could not," Rosie said regretfully. "We need to be nearby because
of her leg. We leave the connecting door open," she explained to her
brother. "So she may call us. It would have been odd had Mama separated
you from your family or even placed you in the adjoining room to see to our
duties."
Evie
spoke again. "But what was it like in the dormitory? I presume you do not
have one at home."
He
was amused at her question. She might appear elegant and grown up, but she was
only barely out of school. "Well, Evie --"
She
looked very serious. "Evangeline, now that I have finished school."
"Evangeline,
you know what it is like in a dormitory. Did you not sleep in one only a year
ago?"
"But
you were there with your nanny!" she whispered.
"Which
is really the most convenient arrangement if there is a small child. He must be
watched every second and one person does not suffice because he has no cot he
may be put into to keep him safe." Robert thought that was an excellent
explanation and it seemed to satisfy his sisters too.
They
had more questions, however. "Did you want to be married because you
needed a wife to look after Thomas or did you really want a new wife?"
"I
got a nanny for Thomas and then I liked her." It would not be a marriage
of convenience. He knew that much.
"Better
than Sarah?"
He
had known there would be someone to ask the question eventually and the last
thing he wanted was to seem unfair to her. He had been happy and he had
grieved. He could not have done anything else, although he felt powerless that
this was all and that she had been dead for longer than he had been married to
her. "Differently."
"But
not better?"
"They
are two different people. Would you like Rosie better than me? I have no doubt
I shall like Anne better, simply because she is alive. She is different. I have
to be different too. I have to imagine myself in her position." He
wondered why he had never had to do that before.
"Oh
well," said Evie, who was the more talkative of the two. "I did not
really know Sarah anyway. I think we saw her twice. I am sure we shall come to
like Anne very well. She does not talk at all, but she seems sweet."
"Yes,
she is." He had no problems admitting that. "She is also very
clever."
"Do
you think you could persuade Mama to give Thomas up? She has been monopolising
him since you arrived and you are leaving tomorrow."
"Well,
he is her only grandson."
"And
he is our only nephew. We should like some time with him."
Robert
promised to see what he could do.
"Mama,
the girls want their nephew," he announced. "They want to play with
him because he is going away tomorrow and you have had him all this
while."
"Aw,"
she said, looking down at the boy in her lap. "I suppose so. You sit by me
then, Robbie."
Robert
caught Anne's look and he tried not to laugh. He gave Thomas to her. "I
think they went to the music room to practise. It is directly at the foot of
the stairs."
"Yes...Robbie,"
she mouthed with a bewildered expression.
Anne
felt some sadness on their last night in the dormitory. Although she had
earlier today said to Mrs. Newman that it was not as distressing as it seemed,
that had in fact been somewhat of an understatement. She had come to enjoy
their bedtime chats and their games with Thomas. It was a pity that tomorrow
she would be all alone again and that she would have to think of saying
everything before she went to her own room.
As
she was chasing after Thomas, she passed Mr. Newman's bed. He had not slept on
the floor and he was in his bed, watching everything from above. She leant
against his bed to talk to him. "I hope he has not grown so used to such a
bed that he will start crying in the morning because he cannot get out by
himself."
"I
wish he would."
"You
do?" Anne looked away from Thomas for a second to stare at Mr. Newman. He
must have some reason for that.
"I
ought not, but I do."
"Why?"
"I
liked having the two of you so near," he confessed.
"Yes,"
she smiled and looked at Thomas again. She had liked it too. "Both of
us?"
"Yes.
But it is not a good thing to make the same arrangements for him at home. I
confess the only reason I could have for it would be to have you there, so you
must stop me if I ever suggest it."
Anne
gave him another glance. "You would want only me there? On the
floor?"
"Yes,
only you, because you are the only one who can talk -- if we could get your
mattress back before Mrs. Farrell comes in."
"Mrs.
Farrell," she mused, but she found she was not opposed to the idea at all.
There was nothing distressing about it in the least. It would be exactly the
same as here, but without Thomas. "Would she care?"
"Goodness
knows where she thinks you have been sleeping until now," he realised.
"Apart
from in my own bed?" she wondered. "Where could I have been?"
"In
mine, for instance. Especially now that we are away and she cannot check. But
no, that will not do. You go on the floor or you go in your own bed."
"You
know I shall leave that up to you, do you not?" She would go along with
either suggestion, but she would not be so forward as to make a decision on her
own. Girls should not be so forward, as she was certain her new mother-in-law
would agree. "I really should not even be talking about this."
"Not
to anybody else, but to me, yes. You keep forgetting that you agreed to marry
me."
"Oh,
no," she assured him. "I have not forgotten."
"But
you have not once said Robert." He narrowed his eyes in an attempt to look
stern.
She began to giggle. "But I did once almost say Robbie. I thought you noticed."
Chapter Twenty-Seven
The
return trip had gone well and Anne was glad to be home again and a mistress of
her own time, as much as Thomas would allow her. She could now at least escape
again, though never for long. Mr. Newman had said they should first thank Her
Grace for the use of her carriage, or perhaps he simply wished to show nothing
had happened to Anne in their absence. She grudgingly agreed to the visit,
because it would be short.
She
trailed along to the great house, where they were taken to see Her Grace. Anne
was a little frightened to see that the duchess and her cousin were in the
company of two young gentlemen whom she had merely seen go by in church. They
were introduced as the Duke of Muncester and Mr. George Lenton, but that did
not make her more at ease. She hoped nobody would ask her anything, because she
would not be able to speak in front of two strangers.
The
duke displayed very little interest in her, but Mr. Lenton looked a little
disappointed upon hearing she was Mrs. Newman. Anne herself was surprised to
hear she was Mrs. Newman here as well, but she was not the type to speak up.
News of village weddings did not seem to have reached the pair, which was
curious. She supposed they had been away.
"I
hope your visit went well, Mr. Newman," said the duchess.
"Yes,
thank you. We came to thank you for your generous offer of your carriage."
"Naturally.
I hardly use it. What did your mother say to your news?"
"Er
... my mother ... er..." He gave the two young gentlemen a glance. "She
could only approve."
"I
do not suppose you have ever done very much to make her distrust you."
"One
never knows with mothers," he said.
Anne
caught a look of complete agreement on the duke's face. Although given what she
had heard of him she did not think he deserved an easy time, she did not think
even an angel of a boy would have an easy time with the duchess for a mother.
She would have done better with a daughter.
"I
am glad mine is dead!" cried Mr. Lenton, but there was no approval for
this comment from anybody else.
"And
I am glad you are leaving tomorrow," the duchess informed him.
"Let
us play," the duke suggested to his cousin. He seemed to sense that this
was better than staying. "Will you allow us to leave you, Mama?"
"Yes,
go," she gestured and waited until they had left. "Now we can speak
more freely. Your mother approved?"
"She
runs a school. She could not advertise the fact that I had come there without
being married, so she had to call Anne Mrs. Newman. Other than that I think she
did not mind anything." He looked at Anne to see if she had anything else
to say, but she shook her head.
"She
would not have appreciated it had you come alone," the duchess stated.
"Given how soon you will be married, she will have liked the opportunity
to save you betimes, should that have been necessary."
"Mothers
like that," Mrs. Black said to Anne. "Did you not find it too
distressing to meet her?"
"Yes,
but I did not expect her to love me instantly and I understood what she said
about her good name, so I found it much more distressing that she placed us in
the same room," Anne revealed.
"I
beg your pardon? For sleeping?" The duchess nearly had a fit.
"It
was a dormitory with six beds, Your Grace," Mr. Newman explained.
"There was really nothing very distressing about it. There was no other
space for us because we had not warned her beforehand."
"But
you took off your shirt," Anne said a little accusingly, before she
realised that perhaps she should not.
Her
Grace still looked faint. "One does not do that in front of ladies."
"My
dear," Mrs. Black cut in. "I should hope he did, given that he stayed
there a week."
Anne
deduced from Mrs. Black's expression that Mr. Black had never shared the
duchess' opinion. She did not know whom to follow in this matter. The duchess
felt unequal to remaining in the room with such scandalous people, she
supposed, for she left. It made Anne rather anxious. She had not intended to
make such an ill-bred comment that upset the duchess, especially now that she
was to marry her steward and they might be in company more often.
"Do
not mind my cousin," Mrs. Black reassured her. "Her theory will soon
prove untenable even to herself. Then she will pity you exceedingly and be very
kind."
"There
was baby spit all over my shirt," Mr. Newman said a little tersely. He did
not want to be accused of bad behaviour.
"Then
she will pity you exceedingly as well," Mrs. Black said cheerfully.
"The larger the house, the greater the distress! All the poor families who
are eight or nine to a room cannot afford any distress at all."
Anne
quietly considered that perspective on the matter. It was probably very
correct. Her distress ought to be somewhere in the middle, with the duchess'
extreme sensibilities on the one hand and the poor families on the other.
Perhaps they even qualified as a poor family who had to be three to a room. She
had been able to afford only a few moments of distress.
Mr.
Newman was impatient to move to another topic, since he had very likely not
experienced any distress at all. "What did the village say to the
news?"
"That
they had always known you would."
"Yes,
I told them so from the start. They cannot deny that I did."
"Oh,
they knew before you told them," said Mrs. Black. "Mrs. Tompkins
swears that she predicted it the moment you started looking for nannies."
"That
is so very clever of her. Even before I knew it myself and before she knew I
was looking, because I never told her when I began," he said
sarcastically. "But I suppose this is very good for us, to have the
decision accepted."
"Of
course they did quiz Mrs. Farrell -- or rather, her daughters, because you
might have asked Mrs. Farrell to remain silent."
"Of
course, but they had nothing of interest to say," he said confidently.
Anne
had a question. "But if they were already questioned, they will not likely
be questioned again?" In that case Mr. Newman -- Robert -- might feel less
hesitation to drag mattresses back and forth. Yes, if he was to do that, he must
be Robert.
"I
am sure you can do as you please now," Mrs. Black said with a smile.
"Not only are they not likely to ask Mrs. Farrell for daily updates, but
she is also not likely to answer. But Anne, you might want to consider leaving
Mr. Newman's shirt out of any conversation on the subject."
Anne
blushed. "I know that! Now I do. And I knew it before. But not when I said
it."
"Did
you have plans?" Robert inquired when they walked back to his house. He
liked plans and he would be very interested if any plans were being hatched
that involved him. "You asked whether Mrs. Farrell would be questioned
again, as if you had plans."
Anne
did not immediately confess to any. "I thought you did."
"Perhaps.
But if my taking off my shirt distresses you so much, perhaps not." He
gave her a teasing glance. In spite of her words, she had not become angry, nor
had she fainted. It was the duchess who would, but she had probably been
brought up to think it extremely sinful. She had never come back to the room, yet
Mrs. Black had not been too concerned about that. Mrs. Black, at least, was
sensible.
"But
I had never seen such a thing before," Anne protested.
He
had been assuming it was something like that, but now she had and therefore a
second time could only be much less unnerving. He was not at all concerned.
"You have Thomas crawl around without any clothes on and you take
offence at my shirt going off? I am merely an older version of
Thomas."
"Well!"
Anne cried, colouring. "I hope you will not crawl around without
any clothes on to prove that point!"
He
laughed at her. "Good plan."
"No,
no, no!"
"How
could you even fear it?" he said more kindly. "Crawl? A grown man? I
would rather walk."
Anne
gave a shriek and ran away from him, which was only possible because she was
not the one carrying Thomas. She did not run too far ahead, but she came back
more slowly, waiting for him to catch up with her.
He
laughed at her again. "We are not really planning that, are we?" he
asked Thomas, although he made it look like a secretive communication and he
had the amusement of seeing Anne look suspicious.
Thomas
wanted to go after her, but he did not realise he was on his father's arm and
thus not in control of their movements. He had to make do with stretching out
his arms and kicking. "Anne!" he cried.
"Well, you try it yourself then." Robert set him on the ground. "If you want to go to Anne, you must walk. If Papa goes to Anne, she will run away." He held him by the hands. "Anne? Do not make it too far for him to try, if he wants to do it at all."
Thomas
had walked a few steps and considering the praise and cuddles he received, it
was not unlikely that he would try again. Anne was thrilled by his achievement
and she completely forgot all about Robert's naughtiness. She was even excited
enough to take his arm as they walked home.
At
home, she tried to coax more steps out of the little boy while Robert prepared
something to eat. Thomas could take a few steps and then he fell over, but he
did not let this discourage him. He kept trying and he was upset when he was
lifted up and seated at the dinner table.
"He
must eat something," said Robert. "He will not realise it, but he
will wake us in the middle of the night if he does not. Be a good boy, Thomas.
After eating you may walk as much as you like."
"Er..."
Anne protested when she imagined him wanting to walk throughout the night.
"I may want to go to bed at some point."
"Do
you think he will not?"
She
tried to judge the extent of his excitement. "Not before me. We are in
another house again. Perhaps he will spit?"
She
was fortunate, however, because an hour after dinner Thomas decided he was
tired and he curled up in her lap. She carried him to his bed and got him ready
for that while he was half asleep. Then she returned downstairs in a thoughtful
mood. After sharing such excitement she was not looking forward to going to her
room all alone. What was she to do with her comments and speculations in that
case? She would forget them all if she was to postpone them until the morning.
"Do
you like shifting mattresses?" she asked after having circled Robert
hesitantly.
He
was reading his mail, which was not much. He looked up when she asked her
question, although he had noticed her walking around him. "I do..." he
said slowly.
"Would
you help me shift one?"
He
laid his mail aside. "Naturally. Would you like to go to sleep or merely
prepare your bed? Do I come back here afterwards or not?"
"I
thought we might as well talk up there if you have nothing else to do
here."
"Do
you mean talk while we shift? Or talk after it has been shifted?" he
teased.
"You
know what I mean," Anne said in exasperation, running back
upstairs. She was excited by her own boldness.
He
grinned to himself and checked whether everything downstairs was ready for the
night. Then he followed her. He found her in the last stages of getting into
her nightgown. Her speed was amazing. A few moments ago she had been downstairs
completely dressed and now she only had to pull that last bit down from her
knees to her ankles. "Anne, you --" he shook his head.
She
looked smug at having been so quick. "You did not knock."
"No,
of course I did not knock. Would you have expected somebody to be
changing into her nightgown a mere minute after having seen her dressed?"
"I
suppose not," she admitted. "But I did not expect you to be so quick
either."
He
stood looking at the bed. "If you will take the pillow -- no, if you will
take one end..." It was some hard work to drag the mattress to his room, but
finally it was accomplished. Robert panted for show. "And you want me to
do this twice a day?"
"It
does go faster if you help," Anne said demurely. "But perhaps if I do
not like it at all, I shall not ask for it tomorrow."
"Anne,
is it really you?" he wondered.
"I
am very happy to be home again," she said gravely. She had been wondering
the same thing. "It makes me behave unlike myself."
"Really?"
He removed his coat and began to work on his shirt. There was a quick way to
test that.
"No!"
she cried.
"Ah,
it is really you." Robert smiled.
Robert
had been willing to be considerate and he had not distressed her further. It
was after all already a great improvement that she had made a request. He
supposed she was either very happy to be home again or very nervous about being
here, for she talked more than she ever had before. "Anne," he said
at some point when he had already found himself yawning a few times. "Why
do you talk so much?"
"Because
you always want me to -- and because today I want to talk myself as well."
"And
tomorrow?"
"I
do not yet know. Do you like it? Perhaps I shall talk less tomorrow, because it
will be another sort of day. We shall not have come home and Thomas will not
have walked and there will be less to talk about."
He
chuckled. "I never thought there would be a moment that I should have to
ask you to stop talking."
"Indeed!
Perhaps you should not. It may discourage me," she said teasingly.
He
left his bed and approached her mattress. "Anne! Have you got a fever?
Will you spit? You sound a little overexcited." This was not the best time
for such excitement. Although they had gone to bed early, they had talked so
much as to make it very late regardless and Anne did not sound the least bit
tired. It was very worrisome.
"Yes,
yes, I am. I do not think I shall spit, but perhaps I shall not sleep either.
Where are you, because you sound as if you got out of bed, very nearby,"
Anne said suspiciously.
"Here."
Robert stretched out his hand and touched her. "I came to see whether you
are all right. Where is your forehead?"
She
took his hand and placed it there. "Am I all right?"
"No,
you are not. I have no idea how to get you calm and quiet again." He could
drag the mattress back to her room, but he was not looking forward to doing so
in the darkness.
"I
wish I could help you. Perhaps you ought to send me back to my room."
"Yes...but
I am tired and I wish there was an easier way to silence you. You see, once we
are married I may not be able to send you away either, so I must try to find another
way."
"Will
you take my room away from me once we are married?" Anne inquired archly.
"Do you mean your nanny has more privileges than your wife?"
He
groaned. "Anne, please! Sleep! Now!"
"Oh,
but I cannot," she said in a small voice. "I have tried, but I cannot
lie still and you keep talking to me."
Apart
from frustrating it was also becoming cold to be out of bed. He sighed and
lifted the bedclothes. "I am sure you can lie still."
"What
are you doing?" she cried.
"I
am going to keep you still." He breathed a sigh of relief when he had her
immobilised on her side and she had not uttered a word. He supposed she had
been too startled to do so. "There. Still. And if you speak another word I
shall lay my hand over your mouth."
"And
do you think I can sleep --"
He
quickly clasped his hand over her mouth. "You cannot move. You cannot
talk. You have no choice but to sleep."
When
Anne woke she was alone. She sat up instantly and looked around, wondering if
she had been dreaming. Robert was getting dressed in a corner and although he
was far from finished, she had to address him anyway. "I am sorry I talked
so much," she said contritely. She had vague memories of being rather
foolish.
"It
was odd," he agreed. "How are you today?"
"Normal,
I think," she replied, trying see how he felt about it. He was very calm.
"Normal,"
he repeated in a bemused voice. "I am getting dressed, Anne."
She
had noticed that, but something else had been more important. "Getting
dressed is very good. It is getting undressed that is not."
"Normal,"
he said again, shaking his head. He did not really agree, but if from now on
this was going to count as normal he would be very satisfied.
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